okay okay... i know i haven't been updating recently coz' i'm quite tired actually. and now, i'm hardly at home over the weekends as i'm residing in YM's place. so during the weekdays, i'm busy with work and/or studies. in fact, i haven't touched my laptop for leisure surfing for quite a while.
nothing much really happened though, just that i'm pretty tired again. really cant wait to get over my last semester and somehow this semester seemed to be taking its own sweet time. or this is how everyone would feel when it comes to their last semester? hmm...
YM going to be away soon in Sept, and i'll be alone for the next 6 to 8 weeks. i'll somehow manage to find my own entertainment... sigh...
i'll update again... soon.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Monday, August 04, 2008
desperately shortchanged
this wedding thinggie is eating a big part of me. maybe coz' i feel i'm fighting a losing battle. i basically using up both of our resources for our wedding, and what we gotten were heaps and heaps of trouble. or did i find trouble for myself?
wedding is a once in a lifetime thing and to my mum, this is just a waste of time and effort, and awfully troublesome. her "modern" concept: just ROM and that's it! yes, i should be grateful to have a mother who's like that but seriously, i believe my wedding should be more than just ROM. if getting married is just another piece of paper witnessed by the Justice of Peace for formality, seriously, why even bother to get married? after all, it's just "formality". so i presume i'm the one who decided to put myself through all those "informalities" huh? however, i know at the end of the day, my life is worth it coz' i've been through and done that. pretty staunch, am i?
since my mum wasn't too approving of me having a wedding dinner, i thought the most she could do was to guide and provide her support. however, the type of support she's ushering to me was to give in to my future-in-laws. WHY SHOULD I!?
they were the ones who said "you want to get married, but we say first, we don't have money to help you." so WHY SHOULD I GIVE IN!? i've to give in just because they're my in-laws? seriously, why should i be giving 2 hoots to people who have no money to help and yet still want things their way? hmm... that doesn't sound right does it? i'm coming out with the money and i'm the one not to be happy about this whole wedding thing???
my mum said that YM was their only son, and it's only right that they would want to invite more people. oh great, now sex discrimination. what's next?
YM said if my mum feels happier to give up "fighting" for tables for the dinner and his parents can tend invite whoever they want, so both sides would be happy. ahem, then what about me? i'm the bride, it's my wedding, and i'm not happy. doesn't sounds right, does it? furthermore, they're not the one to come out with the money... even worse. they seemed to be taking over without having to fork out a single penny. hmm...
i've been shortchanged all my life, having to have 3 brothers ahead of me. so i don't see why i should be shortchanged at this stage and the rest of my life. if i don't fight for my deserved rights, i won't have a place in that home in future.
i'm not being selfish. this is just survival instincts.
wedding is a once in a lifetime thing and to my mum, this is just a waste of time and effort, and awfully troublesome. her "modern" concept: just ROM and that's it! yes, i should be grateful to have a mother who's like that but seriously, i believe my wedding should be more than just ROM. if getting married is just another piece of paper witnessed by the Justice of Peace for formality, seriously, why even bother to get married? after all, it's just "formality". so i presume i'm the one who decided to put myself through all those "informalities" huh? however, i know at the end of the day, my life is worth it coz' i've been through and done that. pretty staunch, am i?
since my mum wasn't too approving of me having a wedding dinner, i thought the most she could do was to guide and provide her support. however, the type of support she's ushering to me was to give in to my future-in-laws. WHY SHOULD I!?
they were the ones who said "you want to get married, but we say first, we don't have money to help you." so WHY SHOULD I GIVE IN!? i've to give in just because they're my in-laws? seriously, why should i be giving 2 hoots to people who have no money to help and yet still want things their way? hmm... that doesn't sound right does it? i'm coming out with the money and i'm the one not to be happy about this whole wedding thing???
my mum said that YM was their only son, and it's only right that they would want to invite more people. oh great, now sex discrimination. what's next?
YM said if my mum feels happier to give up "fighting" for tables for the dinner and his parents can tend invite whoever they want, so both sides would be happy. ahem, then what about me? i'm the bride, it's my wedding, and i'm not happy. doesn't sounds right, does it? furthermore, they're not the one to come out with the money... even worse. they seemed to be taking over without having to fork out a single penny. hmm...
i've been shortchanged all my life, having to have 3 brothers ahead of me. so i don't see why i should be shortchanged at this stage and the rest of my life. if i don't fight for my deserved rights, i won't have a place in that home in future.
i'm not being selfish. this is just survival instincts.
Friday, July 25, 2008
someone came back?
i have lost touch with facebook for quite a while, thought it was awfully crowded with stuff which were pretty useless. initially it was fun but, i guess i grew out of it pretty fast compared to friendster. nevertheless, i still received nonsensical emails informing updates from my facebook profile which i hardly ever opened the mail to see what was it. usually i'll just deleted it straight away without batting an eyelid.
recently, i saw quite a couple of friend's request. and one of the names i coincidentally saw was pretty familiar. so yeap, i finally logged in to check it out.
a friend whom i used to affectionately regarded her as a "sister" suddenly popped back into scene. it's none other than Nadya Masuri - a really close (then) friend back in Secondary school.
she lost touch with me for at least 5 years. or was it me? she chose to further her studies abroad in Australia after her A'levels. initially we kept in contact and when she came home, she'll call me up and we'll hang out. somehow gradually, she didn't bother telling me her coming home and i obviously didn't know coz' i was busy with my poly and all. nevertheless, i do dropped a couple of messages to wish her well on her birthdays, but she never returned hers. i was pretty upset on how we just went on each other's way but i came to term where it's really up to her if she wanted to maintain contacts. after all, she's the one who's away from home and i'm always here. sadly, i personally felt that she should still put in abit more effort though. look at Bellie, i'm still in close contact with her! so i reckon she was never interested to keep contact anyway.
so why suddenly tripped upon my profile and decided to add me? seriously, she could have just looked at my profile and leave silently.
i was pretty skeptical when i confirmed my suspicion. i just can't help it. however, i still added her. she left me a note saying i got prettier and she envied my hair. whatever! i may have added her, but that didnt mean much. i was just being diplomatic.
i went on to view her profile and i reckon she was still in close contact with Andrea Wee. yes, sadly, both of them who're not in SG anymore somehow didn't bother thinking that we all once shared tears and joy together. time difference? yeah, prolly... but i doubt they're 12 hours different from us! one in Australia, another one in NZ. so what huge time difference are we talking here?
anyway, i didn't bother informing both of them about my marriage plans. if they happened to trip upon my profile or blog (again), good for them. otherwise, maybe they can try keeping up with me for a while and see if they're able to revive any friendship here. or not, adios!
recently, i saw quite a couple of friend's request. and one of the names i coincidentally saw was pretty familiar. so yeap, i finally logged in to check it out.
a friend whom i used to affectionately regarded her as a "sister" suddenly popped back into scene. it's none other than Nadya Masuri - a really close (then) friend back in Secondary school.
she lost touch with me for at least 5 years. or was it me? she chose to further her studies abroad in Australia after her A'levels. initially we kept in contact and when she came home, she'll call me up and we'll hang out. somehow gradually, she didn't bother telling me her coming home and i obviously didn't know coz' i was busy with my poly and all. nevertheless, i do dropped a couple of messages to wish her well on her birthdays, but she never returned hers. i was pretty upset on how we just went on each other's way but i came to term where it's really up to her if she wanted to maintain contacts. after all, she's the one who's away from home and i'm always here. sadly, i personally felt that she should still put in abit more effort though. look at Bellie, i'm still in close contact with her! so i reckon she was never interested to keep contact anyway.
so why suddenly tripped upon my profile and decided to add me? seriously, she could have just looked at my profile and leave silently.
i was pretty skeptical when i confirmed my suspicion. i just can't help it. however, i still added her. she left me a note saying i got prettier and she envied my hair. whatever! i may have added her, but that didnt mean much. i was just being diplomatic.
i went on to view her profile and i reckon she was still in close contact with Andrea Wee. yes, sadly, both of them who're not in SG anymore somehow didn't bother thinking that we all once shared tears and joy together. time difference? yeah, prolly... but i doubt they're 12 hours different from us! one in Australia, another one in NZ. so what huge time difference are we talking here?
anyway, i didn't bother informing both of them about my marriage plans. if they happened to trip upon my profile or blog (again), good for them. otherwise, maybe they can try keeping up with me for a while and see if they're able to revive any friendship here. or not, adios!
Monday, July 14, 2008
long awaited photos!
yes! i finally got my hands on those photos from the photoshoot! quite pleased with the raw pictures, even though i thought it could have been better. but i'm still happy with everything! efforts are paid off, every single cent out of it.
i've total of 854 pictures in total (including 10% candids), and we're tasked to choose 60 of our favorites to print out onto a album. super tough job! coz' we seemed to be bickering on each other's choice of photo... hahaha... and i only managed to pick out, *gulp* 6 pictures? LOL... yes, i'll be more serious okay? i've as high expectations as all of you out there for the quality of the end product too.
here's a quick sneak peek at my photos:
not too bad huh?
i cant possibly upload everything, but these are some of the gems in the collection. =D leave me some comments if my pictures are good...
alright, gotta go sleep. nights!
Thursday, July 03, 2008
tiring but happy
photoshoot assignment is really a no-joke. it's super tough, and tiring! woke up as early as normal working days and prepare. good thing i had most of my stuff at YM's place, coz' he's more meticulous at such things than i do. so he was assigned to bring my accessories and his suit and matching shoes. my gowns were transported over to the studio by my bridal seamstress, offered by her. so all i need to do was to bring my shoes, my own makeup kit and makeup remover. =D
we started around 10am, taking some shots in the studio. i hadn't do a makeover before, so i definitely know nuts about posing for shoots. YM was worse! he even had difficulty trying to relax. LOL! even the photographer commented he was quite stiff. hahaha... well, he's naturally camera-shy. as for me, ahem, just put it as i've a natural flair. *flips hair*
for outdoor shoots, we went to fort canning and then chinatown. i brought 2 suits out with me: 1 cheongsam and 1 outdoor gown. i was quite blessed with good weather: cloudy and a tad bit breezy. yes, i did sweat but surprisingly it didnt melt my makeup. on various times it did threatened to rain with grey clouds but it never did. phew!
YM had a really loyal friend with him, who especially took leave to assist us since morning. in fact, he was the driver for us that day and he dutifully performed his responsibilities - fetching us around, helping us to take our suits and hand-bouquet. despite that he was in tee, berms and sandals, it was sweating way more than us. however, he didnt whine a wee bit. only to complain that it was humid. of coz', at the end of the day when we went back to the studio for some final shots, he shared with us that he's really tired. and even slept on the couch. poor dear...
YM didn't bring his camera coz' he felt he was pretty overloaded with things to bring. hence, there will be no candid shots for now. so, we just have to wait for my photos to be ready for review.
the photos will come maybe next week or later. coz' in about half an hour's time, i'll be making my trip down to Tioman for a short getaway (desperately requested by YM) and will only be back on Sunday. you thought wrong if you're thinking it's some pre-wedding honeymoon or such, coz' a small bunch of "monkeys" will be tagging as well. oh well, i just hope it will still turn out as a fruitful relaxation getaway rather than.... hectic. so at least i wont be drained (on contrary for a Tioman trip which is supposedly to be relaxing) when i resumed work on the following day.
overall, the photoshoot was really draining, but i enjoyed every moment of it. after all, this is prolly the only time where i looked myself in the mirror and saw something pleasant out of myself and my husband-to-be. this gonna sound crazy, but i wouldn't mind to put myself through another photoshoot! =x
now, i'm falling aslp but i can't sleep coz' i'm leaving soon. i didnt recover from the photoshoot, and i literally felt fatigue when i went to work the following day. so regretful that i didn't take the day off to rest instead. and thinking i can go back home to rest after work, YM and his bunch of "monkeys" suggested to tire ourselves out completely so we get to sleep on our journey to Tioman. and in fact, i just came back from a 4 hours KTV session at PartyWorld in Shenton Way. gawd!
well, looks like i've stayed awake for nearly 24 hours...
we started around 10am, taking some shots in the studio. i hadn't do a makeover before, so i definitely know nuts about posing for shoots. YM was worse! he even had difficulty trying to relax. LOL! even the photographer commented he was quite stiff. hahaha... well, he's naturally camera-shy. as for me, ahem, just put it as i've a natural flair. *flips hair*
for outdoor shoots, we went to fort canning and then chinatown. i brought 2 suits out with me: 1 cheongsam and 1 outdoor gown. i was quite blessed with good weather: cloudy and a tad bit breezy. yes, i did sweat but surprisingly it didnt melt my makeup. on various times it did threatened to rain with grey clouds but it never did. phew!
YM had a really loyal friend with him, who especially took leave to assist us since morning. in fact, he was the driver for us that day and he dutifully performed his responsibilities - fetching us around, helping us to take our suits and hand-bouquet. despite that he was in tee, berms and sandals, it was sweating way more than us. however, he didnt whine a wee bit. only to complain that it was humid. of coz', at the end of the day when we went back to the studio for some final shots, he shared with us that he's really tired. and even slept on the couch. poor dear...
YM didn't bring his camera coz' he felt he was pretty overloaded with things to bring. hence, there will be no candid shots for now. so, we just have to wait for my photos to be ready for review.
the photos will come maybe next week or later. coz' in about half an hour's time, i'll be making my trip down to Tioman for a short getaway (desperately requested by YM) and will only be back on Sunday. you thought wrong if you're thinking it's some pre-wedding honeymoon or such, coz' a small bunch of "monkeys" will be tagging as well. oh well, i just hope it will still turn out as a fruitful relaxation getaway rather than.... hectic. so at least i wont be drained (on contrary for a Tioman trip which is supposedly to be relaxing) when i resumed work on the following day.
overall, the photoshoot was really draining, but i enjoyed every moment of it. after all, this is prolly the only time where i looked myself in the mirror and saw something pleasant out of myself and my husband-to-be. this gonna sound crazy, but i wouldn't mind to put myself through another photoshoot! =x
now, i'm falling aslp but i can't sleep coz' i'm leaving soon. i didnt recover from the photoshoot, and i literally felt fatigue when i went to work the following day. so regretful that i didn't take the day off to rest instead. and thinking i can go back home to rest after work, YM and his bunch of "monkeys" suggested to tire ourselves out completely so we get to sleep on our journey to Tioman. and in fact, i just came back from a 4 hours KTV session at PartyWorld in Shenton Way. gawd!
well, looks like i've stayed awake for nearly 24 hours...
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