my granddaddy's still around... i think

i just got home. so blardy late. and i'm to wake up in less than 6 hours' time coz' i'm working tomorrow, and involved in Bugis's set up. quite stupid arrangement, knowing i've to attend funeral, and yet get me involved in early set up. what other stupid moves i am to expect from the roster planner?

anyway, my cousin just told me that his wife saw ah gong. *pause* and he explained that sometimes she can see "things". she saw him, standing next to his coffin, holding 3 yellow pieces of paper (i don't know what's that), looking at the basin which was burning incense papers for him.

the thing is: she can't see his legs.

he added on saying that now he understands why she was shivering when she was made to pay her last respects before they leaves with their baby. after telling him what she saw, she thought it through that there wasn't a reason for her to be afraid since he was our grandfather. there's no reason for her to be afraid.

also for today, there was a ritual for him. and the bunch of followers (aka the people whom we paid them to carry out the ritual) were one hell of a let down. one of them told us to get ready for the ritual, some of them still playing mahjong (they brought their own set!). i guess granddaddy knew we're frustrated with them. the lights for the tentage where they would carry out the ritual suddenly black out! almost immediately, the "sai gong" scolded them to stop playing.

sure enough, the lights came back on.

most of my cousins and relatives saw what happened and they were laughing to themselves. somehow they understood how impatient my grandfather would be. and they all knew the "sai gong" knew. or not, he wouldn't scold his fellow colleagues.

i felt his presence at times. however, i'm not that "sensitive". i'm still hoping i'll see him, someday, smiling at me...

our last farewell

life can be so ironic. one moment i was enjoying myself, and the other, i was made to send my grandfather off his last journey. he passed on yesterday evening, somewhere around 8.45pm.

nobody really cried. maybe coz' it was too sudden. he suddenly not breathing and all, and his pulse slowly weakened. when i arrived, i touched him. his body was already lifeless, however, still slightly warm. so i guess i was a tad bit late despite i took a cab down. and my aunties and all still debating if he's still alive or had he leave for good. i guess he was, but just that life in him quietly slipping away.

i was pretty numb about the whole incident. i felt sad, naturally. however, it didn't tug my heart. perhaps i wasn't close to him in the 1st place, and also being the "girl" in that family was just not significant in the household. so since i wasn't really bothered in the family, i wasn't really bothered about them as well. sad case huh? anyway, he died peacefully. that's as far as i can see.

but i'm wondering how come he left so quietly. is it that he's contented almost everyone turned up at his near-deathbed yesterday? or is it because he didn't want us to stop him from leaving? how i wished he had some energy to tell us... anything.

i wished i could see "something". i must be crazy to wish for that but at this moment, i just wanna see "it". actually, i hope to see my granddad again...

goodbye, ah gong.

a small shopping spree!

since it's my RD, i just have to do something about it. so, going out with YM was a good choice. he's always so gamed about shopping, even if it's just me shopping and him waiting. the best part is, he don't even mind if it's just window shopping! gentlemen out there must learn from him, and i mean it!

since i got my topshop card, might as well utilized it. and i seriously can't wait to use it! i gotten myself 4 topshop knickers (aka underwear la) and 2 basic tops which i love it to bits! woo! they're like going for a bundle price of "buy 2 for 20% off". so get 2 lah! i'm feeling so contented. ha!

it's really nice hor?? i just LOVE topshop. such a sinful indulgence... at least for me la. hahaha...

also, i finally DID it!! Navel Piercing!! OMG! i just can't believe i ACTUALLY did that!! it didn't cost me cheap though. it did hurt, not too badly. now i'm pretty terrified about the maintenance part. quite worried about infecting it. and earlier, it did bled slightly coz' i accidentally knocked onto it. ouch!

i took pictures of it but i thought it'll be abit too much for the weak hearted. even looking at it closed up, i felt the gore. hahaha... anyway, that's to mark my 22nd bday. i must be mad right?

i'm a happie girl today!

i guess this week is one of the most relaxing week i have. 1stly, there's no school; 2ndly, BJ is down for renovation and they kind of didn't really put me on shift... hahaha...

i'm on RD today. yesterday, i was assigned to go to warehouse to help tally stock for our set up of "new" BJ on the 30th this month. so if we're to complete all of the cartons assigned to our shops by yesterday, we'll need not to go back today. and by 6.30pm yesterday, everything was done. ha!

as for today, i'll be going out with YM. and also, going back to vivocity's GV to see if they found my coin purse. i tink i dropped it there after a late night movie with YM. =/ i have my driving license and debit mini inside. so i'm REALLY to lose it for good, i'll be sad. REAL upset.

also, i'm intending to do the extreme. i'll let u guyz know in time! hur... it's something i wanna do for quite a while back. and you can only do that when you're still young! kekeke... i mentioned before but hadn't really go ahead with it... so, this is jux a belated bday for myself! *grinz*

ok, i gtg. love you guyz alright?

HAPPIE belated 22nd BDAY TO ME!

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to ME!

hey guess what? i just got back from work. and literally spent the whole day, working. bravo, isn't it? i'm such a sad case, i tell you.

actually, quite pissed from the day i've started work. no one informed me the change in roster. in the end, still thinking i was in Morning shift and hafta helped out at the atrium, dragged myself out of bed and in the end, they told me i was in Afternoon instead. bloody hell. this kind of thing is a NO JOKE ok!? so i ended up helping them to clear the deliveries of the day as part of "commitment". luckily i wasn't the only person got affected. ha!

anyway, it's my RD tomorrow (i haven't sleep yet, so not counted today). most likely i'm resting at home, not as if i'll be able to go anywhere by myself. 1stly, no money liao; and 2ndly, everyone else's working. that thought somehow depresses me. haa...

alrightey, gotta go sleep liao. have to settle the enrolment thinggie tomorrow, but seriously, i'm SUPER lazy to go out if i've intention to nuah....

love you guyz for remembering my bday! *muacks!*