i can't describe how i feel now... everything is welled in me, ready to explode anytime. it's horrible, and i felt so much like breaking down.

ever since the nasty msges exchanged last evening, i nearly couldn't sleep the whole night. my mind wouldn't let it go.

even this morning, i didn't feel any much better. he only msged me a "good night" at nearly 5 am and i didn't hear anything else 'till 5 minutes ago where he dropped me, "good night. miss u.".

that seems to be the final straw.