i don't know whether i'm blessed or cursed with a boyfriend like YM. he's really sweet, nice and make sure your needs are met. however, he can be real blur, kok-head, to the extend that it REALLY pissed me off!!
earlier on, we had dinner with his parents. we dine out as usual at some neighborhood kopitiam and had simple but hearty meal. i was slouching in my chair with my bulging (and happy) belly, casually chatting with his mum. suddenly, AND OUT OF THE BLUE, YM leaned over. he lifted part of my blouse that showed my navel. like some innocent kid, he said to his mum "Ma, hao kan ma? (nice anot)".
his mum would naturally looked at the place he was referring to, and gave that look of displeasure and replied, "Ni qu da ah? (you go and pierce)". i shot YM a dirty look and swiftly covered my tummy.
totally unexpected, i just reacted calmly and responded to his mum. luckily she wasn't any more interested in this kind of "youngsters" things, so she digress the topic. phew.
you know what's the best part? YM DID NOT even get my dirty look. BLARDY HELL!!
not alot of people know about my piercing. i mean, i don't exactly make sure everyone knows, coz' i don't see a need for everyone to know. and people who know are those who would go, "oh ok..." when i tell them!
he said it was a spur of the moment, that he suddenly remembered. so he just nonchalently told his mum about it, RIGHT UNDER MY NOSE! i know his mum is quite open about this kind of things, but please lor, that does not mean she'll like it right??? she's his mum and yet he can be so "don't know" about this meh?!?! it's so obvious of her displeasure when YM's sis starts to pierce her tongue, lips, nose and all. HE even dislike the fact that his sister is doing such things, YET he can just shoot it off his mouth like that.
of course, when i told him what he did, i don't sound very nice. my tone, as usual, is uptight, worked-up and can be quite blunt. so, he got unhappy and started showing me attitude. i'm not blaming him for that, but i'm want him to be abit more sensitive when it comes to things people don't like.
i'm right-out pissed, not angry. just like, "WAH LAU!" kind of mood...
to make things slightly worse off, (i don't know what he's doing), and i think he knows that i don't really wanna be entertained by video clips and/or pictures that would take a while for me to download, especially when it's at night and i wanna do just my OWN things, he didn't get it. the conversation wasn't really word for word but it's close to the REAL thing:
HIM: *trying to transfer one pic to me
ME: *press the "decline" option
ME: not now...
ME: i know you're trying to cheer me up and distract my attention, but do you think it's the right time to do so?
HIM: distract your attention?
ME: digress, if you want to put it
HIM: you think i'm trying to send you that pic is coz' i want to distract you? this pic has been edited a long time ago and i keep forgetting to send it, so since i saw it now then i send to you now. it's not that i want to distract you then i send you...
ME: BUT DO YOU THINK IT'S THE RIGHT TIME TO DO SO NOW?
HIM: *displeased* do you need to put in cap locks?
ME: that is what i'm trying to say
ME: i have to put it in caps, then you are able to see what i'm trying to tell u...
am i sensing some serious lack of the similar wavelength of communication right now? i just can't bear to continue talking to him. i'll really blow my top. he don't get what i'm trying to say, and i'm seeing red just trying to get him know what i need him to know.
do my relationship have to be in such layman terms? do i constantly have to go, "i don't like you to do this because blah blah blah blah...". and i even have to be so specific that "this" have to be referred to that particular situation that i'm unhappy with? and i must literally REFER, so not to create any further misunderstandings.
my life is not that detailed as such, do my conversations have to be vice? please lor! it's super tiring having to keep explaining and explaining and explaining!!
i know he won't really understand what i'm trying to say in this entry, AGAIN.
okay, to put it simply, everyone just needs to find the RIGHT TIME and the RIGHT PLACE to do whatever things (i don't think i need to explain "whatever", right?) that is necessary. and also, the RIGHT WORDS to say.
seriously, if my entries are that tough to understand, either read a couple more times and make full use of your brain-cells, or just don't bother to read it. at least, i won't feel bad about writing "Cheem" entries and also having to go all length to EXPLAIN AND EXPLAIN myself to make people understand.
oh no, i think just by this para, a few will not understand.... ARGH!!!
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