i need RESPECT!

the person who meant so much to me betrayed my trust. why am i always so gullible to believe someone i thought i could believe?

1st was Winston, and now YM!

i TRUSTED Winston, when he said he wouldn't be reading my livejournal. he ended up reading my posts discreetly. naturally, i would post up my truthful feelings in them. and when he found out things he shouldn't see and wouldn't see them if he kept to his word, i wouldn't have broken up with him.

YM went through my call list and realize that i'm contacting this guy friend i've met over friendster. he's just another guy whom i'm able to click with like Ker Ker. just coz' he didn't come from the "proper" source, he dislike that fella.

why do histories like this have to repeat itself?

i forgave what he did to me at the club. spying on me and yet i could like let it go. thought that would probably be the 1st and last time. then again, he never learnt.

as long as you invaded my privacy, it's as good as you didn't respect me for who i am. no explanations can redeem what you did.

why should i be forgiving him again when it's as good as expecting the 3rd "untrusting" encounter? how can i even trust this guy to respect me, let alone trusting me?

this is so hurting to me, not only him!

this is the final straw. once was more than enough to create potential damage. and now, he did it again so smoothly. i believe he just didn't even take into consideration how much my privacy means to me. i have my life protecting it, who could think i'm joking?

he dug his own grave. i'll just have to let him suffocate himself in it. i don't deserve such treatment. sorry, i believe i deserve better.