okay okay... i know i haven't been updating recently coz' i'm quite tired actually. and now, i'm hardly at home over the weekends as i'm residing in YM's place. so during the weekdays, i'm busy with work and/or studies. in fact, i haven't touched my laptop for leisure surfing for quite a while.
nothing much really happened though, just that i'm pretty tired again. really cant wait to get over my last semester and somehow this semester seemed to be taking its own sweet time. or this is how everyone would feel when it comes to their last semester? hmm...
YM going to be away soon in Sept, and i'll be alone for the next 6 to 8 weeks. i'll somehow manage to find my own entertainment... sigh...
i'll update again... soon.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Monday, August 04, 2008
desperately shortchanged
this wedding thinggie is eating a big part of me. maybe coz' i feel i'm fighting a losing battle. i basically using up both of our resources for our wedding, and what we gotten were heaps and heaps of trouble. or did i find trouble for myself?
wedding is a once in a lifetime thing and to my mum, this is just a waste of time and effort, and awfully troublesome. her "modern" concept: just ROM and that's it! yes, i should be grateful to have a mother who's like that but seriously, i believe my wedding should be more than just ROM. if getting married is just another piece of paper witnessed by the Justice of Peace for formality, seriously, why even bother to get married? after all, it's just "formality". so i presume i'm the one who decided to put myself through all those "informalities" huh? however, i know at the end of the day, my life is worth it coz' i've been through and done that. pretty staunch, am i?
since my mum wasn't too approving of me having a wedding dinner, i thought the most she could do was to guide and provide her support. however, the type of support she's ushering to me was to give in to my future-in-laws. WHY SHOULD I!?
they were the ones who said "you want to get married, but we say first, we don't have money to help you." so WHY SHOULD I GIVE IN!? i've to give in just because they're my in-laws? seriously, why should i be giving 2 hoots to people who have no money to help and yet still want things their way? hmm... that doesn't sound right does it? i'm coming out with the money and i'm the one not to be happy about this whole wedding thing???
my mum said that YM was their only son, and it's only right that they would want to invite more people. oh great, now sex discrimination. what's next?
YM said if my mum feels happier to give up "fighting" for tables for the dinner and his parents can tend invite whoever they want, so both sides would be happy. ahem, then what about me? i'm the bride, it's my wedding, and i'm not happy. doesn't sounds right, does it? furthermore, they're not the one to come out with the money... even worse. they seemed to be taking over without having to fork out a single penny. hmm...
i've been shortchanged all my life, having to have 3 brothers ahead of me. so i don't see why i should be shortchanged at this stage and the rest of my life. if i don't fight for my deserved rights, i won't have a place in that home in future.
i'm not being selfish. this is just survival instincts.
wedding is a once in a lifetime thing and to my mum, this is just a waste of time and effort, and awfully troublesome. her "modern" concept: just ROM and that's it! yes, i should be grateful to have a mother who's like that but seriously, i believe my wedding should be more than just ROM. if getting married is just another piece of paper witnessed by the Justice of Peace for formality, seriously, why even bother to get married? after all, it's just "formality". so i presume i'm the one who decided to put myself through all those "informalities" huh? however, i know at the end of the day, my life is worth it coz' i've been through and done that. pretty staunch, am i?
since my mum wasn't too approving of me having a wedding dinner, i thought the most she could do was to guide and provide her support. however, the type of support she's ushering to me was to give in to my future-in-laws. WHY SHOULD I!?
they were the ones who said "you want to get married, but we say first, we don't have money to help you." so WHY SHOULD I GIVE IN!? i've to give in just because they're my in-laws? seriously, why should i be giving 2 hoots to people who have no money to help and yet still want things their way? hmm... that doesn't sound right does it? i'm coming out with the money and i'm the one not to be happy about this whole wedding thing???
my mum said that YM was their only son, and it's only right that they would want to invite more people. oh great, now sex discrimination. what's next?
YM said if my mum feels happier to give up "fighting" for tables for the dinner and his parents can tend invite whoever they want, so both sides would be happy. ahem, then what about me? i'm the bride, it's my wedding, and i'm not happy. doesn't sounds right, does it? furthermore, they're not the one to come out with the money... even worse. they seemed to be taking over without having to fork out a single penny. hmm...
i've been shortchanged all my life, having to have 3 brothers ahead of me. so i don't see why i should be shortchanged at this stage and the rest of my life. if i don't fight for my deserved rights, i won't have a place in that home in future.
i'm not being selfish. this is just survival instincts.
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