i've come to a cross junction...

i've been with the current company for 2 years, doing what i'm doing for 2 years already. i would say, i'm good at what i'm doing. and the company is a good place for their employees to grow. fellow teammates and bosses are what made our stay worthwhile. perhaps its due to our job nature, it made us gel better as we could relate to each other on the daily basis.

reality sets in. they gave me a reasonable pay increment this year, however, it's just not enough. and hence i'm forced to make a decision.... soon.

i've figured out 3 options for me:

1) to find a greener pasture, doing the same thing.

with that, i'm quite sure i would be able to request for a 30 to 40% increment. the work i'm doing right now is relatively niche and not alot of people enjoy working with numbers.


2) find a job which is related to my degree, however, pay may be stagnant.

i've completed my degree for 3 months already, and time is ticking. in fact, if it wasnt what i decided that i want to do communications related work, i wouldn't have made the decision to go back to school.

3) stay and wait for internal job transfer.

it wasn't too long after i joined this company, headcount froze for nearly 2 years. recession came in, pay froze too, and everyone grit their teeth and was grateful we still have our jobs. despite the recession, we had a small variable bonus payout and our usual AWS too. so we couldn't ask for too much.

however, times are slowly regaining back to normal. so most of us are expecting proper rewards. and i guessed most of us are pretty disappointed.

i know if i hang out long enough, i would be given an opportunity to move to other departments, ONLY when there's a headcount available. it could be created or people left. and movement may be lateral - same position, same pay, same rewards. of coz' if i pass my supervisory interview, the movement may be upwards. but that headcount in the other department may not be a supervisory headcount... hence it could either be lateral transfer or stay put in my current dept. and if i stay put in my current dept, if i get promoted, there might be a chance where i get to be posted to HK for an undefined duration. this offer used to be enticing, but with my current situation, i'm not all that keen anymore.

so how?

i know it depends whether i would view monetary rewards more than job satisfaction. but both are closely intertwined.

age is catching up and i don't have much time to play around. and i believe the next step i would take determines my lifelong career. and that's not something i want to trifle with.

i'm back!!

as most of you know, my laptop crashed. i guess the motherboard was overheated and one fine day it refuses to boot up. sigh. pretty unexpected though. and spending for a new laptop was totally unexpected as well. after all, i had other plans for that bonus.... heart pain, definitely.

life's pretty much the same, only that i think i have been really discipline on myself for the past few months: no shopping. some may protest coz' i did some shopping for CNY but that was like the most last minute thing can. the next day was the eve of CNY and i just went shopping for clothes. Nick accompanied me the whole time, running from store to store. so ya, that was the only one time after a few months of cold spell. i haven't been online to look at clothes, anything! basically, there was no retail therapy.... it's sad, really. coz' i need that once in a while to keep myself sane and happy. and i don't think i'm that happy now.... i'm constantly thinking how to clear my outstanding debts.

i have a pay increase. it's a mere 10%, good for some, but not too enough for me. still, it's extra cash and i should be happy about it. well, sort of.... it's a good bait to keep me in the same company for another 6 months or so.... actually i'm quite sick of what i'm doing. i guess it's about time that i would go pursue what i set out to do since the start of my degree, now that i'd graduated.

i'm setting out to clear my credit bills. right now, paying my own commitments and the household is taking up nearly 3/4 of net pay. it's really very heavy for me now. so every month, i don't managed to save. every last cent is accounted for. i'm so sick of it. so i've decided to take up a PT job, as a tuition teacher to earn the extra cash so i can save for rainy days. i need that money, just in case of any emergency. i may have a savings plan but i don't have intention to touch that money. what i need is Cash. and i may approach my brother for a loan.... not a small sum but i had to do it, rather than having the interest charge. now, all i have to do is ask.... but i don't know where to start. it's so embarassing....

and i've already postponed my dive trip to sipadan, and also pursuing further for diving.
if i don't clear these bills in time, i think i can forget about getting married. time frame: 2 years. that's all i'm giving myself; not to get married but to clear everything. i just want the feeling to know i'm debt-free.


i can't wait.....