As X'mas draws near, I was given a jab in my spirit that the year was drawing to a close. Amazingly fast, year after year. And when I looked back at my own resolution drafted up early part of this year, I could be slightly consoled that I've managed to meet 3 out 8! I'm still effectively working on two of those unfulfilled ones though, and the rest still yet to fulfill. well well, not bad, for a starter I guess! hahaha...
What's more, I'm slowly getting more involved in church, which is something really crucial to keep me healthy in faith. I've joined the choir for 2 weeks now, and I'm really enjoying myself. I feel really privileged, to sing for the Lord, and for the church community. The feeling's awesome.
Soon, by next upcoming Easter, I would be baptized. I'm still praying for the day my mum's acceptance about me being baptized. And I do wish that she would be there to witness me being baptized. Her acceptance is important to me, as I do not wish to go against her wishes. Yes, if she still refused, I would listen to her. During this time, I am also on the search for a Godmother. I prayed for a Godmother who would be spiritually matured, hence she would be able to guide me, listen to me, and as good as a Big Sister to me. Guess what? I think I've found her. I still need more time to confirm if it would be her..... ooooooh, I'm actually excited eh! I do hope she wouldn't reject me if I would to ask her.....
Anyhow, it's good to give thanks constantly. Hence before the year ends, I want to give my heartfelt thanks to these people, who made my year eventful, filled with Love.
Fuck-Up Friends (aka FUFs)
I must say, I thank my Fuck-Up group of friends who has painted my world colorful. Rain or shine, they're there. I'm truly blessed to the core to have such great bunch of friends. They never fail to make me angry, cheesed off, frustrated, anxious, excited, and delightful. With them, a huge array of emotions are usually used, and I believe that's what made my world especially eventful. I truly thank God for His Gift of these friends to me.
Bel, Ra, and Mun
My true-blue soulmates, and the sisters of my life. Or an impersonation of 4 best friends in Sex and the City (we still can't figure out who's who). 15 years of friendship with Mun, 14 years of friendship with Bel, 11 years of friendship with Ra; we practically spent our teens together. And I'm seeing us growing old together too.... just that thought makes me darn excited. how much more blessed can we be? :D
Adrian
My unofficial God-brother. When no one believed in platonic friendships, I guess we're good to prove its existance. He's there ever ready for me, even when we don't hear each other for months, and likewise. And that listening ear is ever so important to me.
Ex-UPSers
They're the ones whom made me regret leaving UPS. I've missed them much over the years, and secretly hoped one day I could revert back to UPS and they would still be there. It's truly rare to have ex-colleagues who never fail to organize gatherings or dinner outings, have fun and be merry.
Cherries!
The Lord brings us together, and will keep us together. And it's really heartwarming to see one by one getting hitched, getting and gotten married. Best part is, we can count on each other for prayers, for strength, for support. How much cooler is that!?
Family
This year, we've grown to be closer. I'm meeting mummy regularly for dinner now, or in fact, as and when we're available. I know mummy is growing older, and she needs company especially when brothers are not as attentive. And I'm working on letting her know she can depend on me too, for emotional support. Simply want to be there for her, when she needs me. (Am actually tearing while writing this! OMG!) And am grateful that my big bro is making the effort to bring us siblings together, meeting us for dinners, or bringing us to JB!
Even though I've been single for almost 2 years now (record breaking!), I'm eternally grateful to the Lord for bringing all these people to me. My days were so much more colorful, and never really dull. There's always something to do, and they made my days packed! So I wouldn't complain about boring single's life... haha!
Perhaps in the midst of the abundance of Love from friends, I don't think I can settle with just friends. I'm still looking out for Love, and hope the right guy will come along. In my heart, it's still him. However, I believe to a certain extend, it didn't really matter if we'll end up together. I may feel the pity, but it wouldn't disappoint me much. Such things cannot be rushed, so yeah, it'll be a wait. For how long, well, just wait lor. Ha!
