i feel so fucked up, so angry, so pissed!! can't imagine such a big company like Giordano can have such fucked-up operations!
i'm like supposed to receive my pay on the 27th. actually, the pay day is the 28th but all the time, we got it just slightly one day earlier. this time, due to some techinical fault to the payroll thinggie, our pay are delayed. with a promise that we'll received it on 29th midnight (aka 30th morning), we just have to bear it till that day. but apparently, it's not even in!!
i msged my staff and he replied that our HR sent an email saying it should be latest by midnight (again) or tmr morning... WAH LAU!! i'm like broke to bare and they can still be that "unsure"!?
i still have my outstanding bills to pay. in fact, being kiasi that i didn't pay my bills on time, i've already set dates of transfer to pay my bills and all via internet banking. and for the transaction to go through, it'll take a couple of working days too. so by then it reaches the recipient, i should be considered on time, or just slightly late. now, i'm like SO LATE!
i don't know if this pay delay applies to the rest of the employees of Giordano, including the office people, or it's just the retail people.
argh!!
how can they be so inconsiderate!?
Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
basically, i'm not the only person in PS outlet to dislike working with my SM. i started off being neutral, and tried to be neutral at all times but she really challenges my patience almost everytime i worked with her. on days i don't see her, i won't even think about her. the most i'll hear the usual complains and gossips about her from the other staff. and probably share the juiciest gossips among ourselves. naturally, we began to form our invisible "anti-SM" click.
my 2nd-in-charge and my SM are loggerheads at work. despite that they tried to be as civilised as possible, it is still unevitable that they opinions always clashes and ended up quarrelling. according to my 2nd, they kind of managed to clear things up eventually but the damage has always been there. and i seriously think and feel that i somehow landed myself right between their ongoing dispute.
it's really hard not to take sides. after all, my 2nd has been really patient with me when it comes to teaching me new things and i felt her sincerity in guiding me. or simply, i can click with her.
i feel i'm like forever so suay. when i was at BJ, there's that arsehole PC, the part-timer; when i went to RP, Calista (my 1st, then) is like so tempremental; i went to Centrepoint, there's Lia (then 2nd in charge); and now, there's my SM. it's just so HARD to find a good team to work with, where everyone is okay with everyone....
maybe i'm still in dreamland coz' that will never happens....
my 2nd-in-charge and my SM are loggerheads at work. despite that they tried to be as civilised as possible, it is still unevitable that they opinions always clashes and ended up quarrelling. according to my 2nd, they kind of managed to clear things up eventually but the damage has always been there. and i seriously think and feel that i somehow landed myself right between their ongoing dispute.
it's really hard not to take sides. after all, my 2nd has been really patient with me when it comes to teaching me new things and i felt her sincerity in guiding me. or simply, i can click with her.
i feel i'm like forever so suay. when i was at BJ, there's that arsehole PC, the part-timer; when i went to RP, Calista (my 1st, then) is like so tempremental; i went to Centrepoint, there's Lia (then 2nd in charge); and now, there's my SM. it's just so HARD to find a good team to work with, where everyone is okay with everyone....
maybe i'm still in dreamland coz' that will never happens....
Monday, April 23, 2007
finally a much relaxed week...
to have SM to plan roster, all of our energy level would be dragged to the max. finally, after working for straight 9 days, i get a taste of my RD last Saturday. but even so, i still had my intensive seminar to attend. thank goodness it ended at about 7pm. =) after which, i followed YM to attend one of his friend's chalet.
i was working a 12/Close shift yesterday. later, i'm working a 6 to Close. it has been some time i've worked a 4-hours night shift, ever since i confirmed as a Senior. even though i'm not exactly fond of this kind of shift, at least, i got the chance to catch up with my sleep and sinfully slept till 1.30pm. i guess working for so many days, it'll take at least 1 full day to recuperate. but my rest day was interrupted by my school stuff, then it'll take slightly more than 1 day before i feel totally recharged.
this week's roster is finally easing up on me, even though manpower would be real tight as our part-timers begin their new semester.
Mon - 6/Close
Tues - 12/C
Wed - M
Thurs - M
Fri - 1/2M (PAY DAY!)
Sat - RD
Sun - F
after going through hell, i thought this roster was like a treat for me. but then again, if i didn't request a 1/2M and RD on Fri and Sat, i think i'll get a mid-week rest instead. however, i still prefer having one of my weekends off. i can spend this time with whoever -YM, the girls and catch up with my sleep.
my SM is clearing her AL right now. all of us literally felt PEACE to our ears. her high-pitched voice can really sets one irritated without any reason. especially when she's really worked up, her voice gets so blardy shrilly. i could finally use "shrieks" as an adjective for her. YM had the taste of it. just so happened that he was waiting for me after work and he heard her shrieky voice. hahaha...
plus, she has totally no sense of humor. when the rest of us cracked "cold jokes", she wouldn't be the 1st one to laugh but the 1st one to reprimand. depending on the topic of jokes, if it's related to work, she would get dead serious and kind of kills everyone's mood. and her stupid voice to add on.... faint.
i'm such a crap person, how to work with someone who's such a dork and totally rigid? sometimes i wonder how she managed to promote to a SM....
i was working a 12/Close shift yesterday. later, i'm working a 6 to Close. it has been some time i've worked a 4-hours night shift, ever since i confirmed as a Senior. even though i'm not exactly fond of this kind of shift, at least, i got the chance to catch up with my sleep and sinfully slept till 1.30pm. i guess working for so many days, it'll take at least 1 full day to recuperate. but my rest day was interrupted by my school stuff, then it'll take slightly more than 1 day before i feel totally recharged.
this week's roster is finally easing up on me, even though manpower would be real tight as our part-timers begin their new semester.
Mon - 6/Close
Tues - 12/C
Wed - M
Thurs - M
Fri - 1/2M (PAY DAY!)
Sat - RD
Sun - F
after going through hell, i thought this roster was like a treat for me. but then again, if i didn't request a 1/2M and RD on Fri and Sat, i think i'll get a mid-week rest instead. however, i still prefer having one of my weekends off. i can spend this time with whoever -YM, the girls and catch up with my sleep.
my SM is clearing her AL right now. all of us literally felt PEACE to our ears. her high-pitched voice can really sets one irritated without any reason. especially when she's really worked up, her voice gets so blardy shrilly. i could finally use "shrieks" as an adjective for her. YM had the taste of it. just so happened that he was waiting for me after work and he heard her shrieky voice. hahaha...
plus, she has totally no sense of humor. when the rest of us cracked "cold jokes", she wouldn't be the 1st one to laugh but the 1st one to reprimand. depending on the topic of jokes, if it's related to work, she would get dead serious and kind of kills everyone's mood. and her stupid voice to add on.... faint.
i'm such a crap person, how to work with someone who's such a dork and totally rigid? sometimes i wonder how she managed to promote to a SM....
Thursday, April 19, 2007
tired....
my last rest day is on last Wednesday, and i've been working straight till today. the upcoming rest day is actually this Saturday, which is also the day that i have intensive seminar from 2pm to 10pm. of course, the duration of the seminar depends heavily on the time management of the Ozie lecturer, whether he intends to let us off early.... so technically speaking, i'll be working for 9 days straight.
can somebody sayang me?
yesterday, i worked till 1am in the morning for re-stocktake due to "high stock losses". blardy hell. it's like so tedious and bothersome! after which, i have to work a Morning shift today, and attended classes afterwards. in the end, i left class early coz' i've an assignment due tomorrow at 8pm and i'm working a wholesome Full shift. the best part is: i've not exactly started.
poor time management... totally no time! if it wasn't for the last minute changes to my yesterday's rest day, i would have get something done up.
i'm like so exhausted at this very moment. i'm even blogging with my eyes half-closed. and yet i've to finished 2 qns which worth 100 marks each, and some 1000 words essay per question with relevant references to be done.
ultimately, i need to 熬通宵 tonight. just hoping i'll get it done by 2am...
gimme the strength i need...
can somebody sayang me?
yesterday, i worked till 1am in the morning for re-stocktake due to "high stock losses". blardy hell. it's like so tedious and bothersome! after which, i have to work a Morning shift today, and attended classes afterwards. in the end, i left class early coz' i've an assignment due tomorrow at 8pm and i'm working a wholesome Full shift. the best part is: i've not exactly started.
poor time management... totally no time! if it wasn't for the last minute changes to my yesterday's rest day, i would have get something done up.
i'm like so exhausted at this very moment. i'm even blogging with my eyes half-closed. and yet i've to finished 2 qns which worth 100 marks each, and some 1000 words essay per question with relevant references to be done.
ultimately, i need to 熬通宵 tonight. just hoping i'll get it done by 2am...
gimme the strength i need...
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
my tarot cards tell me...
there's always some ppl that i just cant work with. and with ppl like these i'd met at work, it would give me the urge and the encouragement to look for greener fields. i needed answers, i needed some hints... sometimes, all hints i get are just not enough to fuse my desire to leave...
avoid the line number. basically, it's those i'm supposed to read based on the instruction booklets. and i don't know how to explain in words here.... but the above was the "answers" i've gotten from my tarot cards when i asked how soon exactly would i get the chance to move on...
it kind of tells me what i need to know.
tarot cards right now served very much like a guidance. so far, it kinds of answered me. sometimes, it's abit incredulous when i read the explanations.
believing what it tells me now won't harm me since i couldn't see any doors opening at the moment. so it wouldn't hurt much to just stay where i am. just that i'll probably rant more at times where i really really cannot tahan.
and my sweet and sincere YM will be there to listen to me.... seriously, he's doing a great job. i love him for that... =) i'm so glad that the fact i always rant was not because i needed any solution to the problem nor it was his fault for how i'm feeling, but i just want to get it out of my steam. i guess we came a long way for him to know about this... but most importantly, he learns and get it. definitely make things easier for us, especially for me.
thank you bebe!
the power of meek to tame
you find yourself in a frustrating position in which despite your effort and good work, you cannot realize plans and ideals. too much resistance and too many difficulties stand in your way. there is hope of overcoming the limitations but you must tread carefully taking one step at a time. this is not the time to make a breakthrough. react with measure and sympahty. avoid aggressive behaviour of any kind. you can only manage the desired effect by using friendly persuasion and in maintaining a steady grip on your goals. develop your own character and try to raise your personal standing. if you are resolved in yourself and adaptable to the outside world you will attain your goal and enjoy ultimate success.
Line 1
trying to achieve breakthrough will only lead to failure now. if you withdraw to the second line of defence you can determine the right time to go back on the offensive yourself
Line 3
believe that obstacles are easily overcome. you are trying to achieve results too forcibly. the meek still keeps the stronger in check. if you don't watch out you will collide with a barrage of obstacles and once again regret overestimating yourself.
Line 4
if you remain unselfish and since your advice will find open ears. gradually you are overcoming your own inhibitions, increasing in competence and making fewer and fewer mistakes.
meek (adjective, -er, -est. )
1. humbly patient or docile, as under provocation from others.
2. overly submissive or compliant; spiritless; tame.
3. Obsolete. gentle; kind.
1. humbly patient or docile, as under provocation from others.
2. overly submissive or compliant; spiritless; tame.
3. Obsolete. gentle; kind.
avoid the line number. basically, it's those i'm supposed to read based on the instruction booklets. and i don't know how to explain in words here.... but the above was the "answers" i've gotten from my tarot cards when i asked how soon exactly would i get the chance to move on...
it kind of tells me what i need to know.
tarot cards right now served very much like a guidance. so far, it kinds of answered me. sometimes, it's abit incredulous when i read the explanations.
believing what it tells me now won't harm me since i couldn't see any doors opening at the moment. so it wouldn't hurt much to just stay where i am. just that i'll probably rant more at times where i really really cannot tahan.
and my sweet and sincere YM will be there to listen to me.... seriously, he's doing a great job. i love him for that... =) i'm so glad that the fact i always rant was not because i needed any solution to the problem nor it was his fault for how i'm feeling, but i just want to get it out of my steam. i guess we came a long way for him to know about this... but most importantly, he learns and get it. definitely make things easier for us, especially for me.
thank you bebe!
Monday, April 16, 2007
i popped the sacred qns...
my seminar today ended early, and my project discussion didn't drag long enough. so i had about 2 more hours to mingle around before signing in at 6pm for work.
after having plans to try backend, i was wondering when i would actually call my AM to check when she would be coming to PS so i could have a small chat with her. unexpectedly, she came by today!
i was sitting at the store together with her. she was checking company's overall sales figure and i sat neared her, doing my own stuff. my heart was like thumping so fiercely, my mind was racing, and i'm like fighting within myself to ask or not. it's just SOOOO difficult to just open my mouth and asked. it definitely took all my might to muster my courage... i know it sounded real silly but that was what exactly happened.
so yes, i finally popped the question, "can i talk to you?"
i guess the 1st step to ask was the most difficult. after that, it kind of flowed. but i'm quite careful and selective in what i had to convey coz' i don't want to end up giving her the impression that i didn't have the intention to continue where i am now even if there wouldn't be any chance for me.
anyway, there wasn't a confirm answer for me. i still have to wait, for miracles probably. apparently, based on what my AM told me, she's quite unsure if they would be increasing headcount for marketing dept. plus, she questioned my commitment level coz' i'm studying and my marketing ppl are known to stay up real late to rush datelines. nonetheless, she promised to keep me posted and would asked for me.
patience.... my i-ching tarot cards told me. how long? i can't help questioning but there's no answer...
after having plans to try backend, i was wondering when i would actually call my AM to check when she would be coming to PS so i could have a small chat with her. unexpectedly, she came by today!
i was sitting at the store together with her. she was checking company's overall sales figure and i sat neared her, doing my own stuff. my heart was like thumping so fiercely, my mind was racing, and i'm like fighting within myself to ask or not. it's just SOOOO difficult to just open my mouth and asked. it definitely took all my might to muster my courage... i know it sounded real silly but that was what exactly happened.
so yes, i finally popped the question, "can i talk to you?"
i guess the 1st step to ask was the most difficult. after that, it kind of flowed. but i'm quite careful and selective in what i had to convey coz' i don't want to end up giving her the impression that i didn't have the intention to continue where i am now even if there wouldn't be any chance for me.
anyway, there wasn't a confirm answer for me. i still have to wait, for miracles probably. apparently, based on what my AM told me, she's quite unsure if they would be increasing headcount for marketing dept. plus, she questioned my commitment level coz' i'm studying and my marketing ppl are known to stay up real late to rush datelines. nonetheless, she promised to keep me posted and would asked for me.
patience.... my i-ching tarot cards told me. how long? i can't help questioning but there's no answer...
Sunday, April 15, 2007
a wrong choice to continue study?
as everyone knows my family's financial condition, i could only scrape through supporting the finances of my degree. if it werent for my wrong choice in my diploma course and my other entry jobs, i wouldn't be paying the costly consequences.
sigh...
after like dragging for more than 1 month, with multiple warnings from my school, to the final email from the school that my assignments will not be graded if i did not pay up my fees, my brother FINALLY paid my fees.
i know, i should have been more understanding and appreciative. i didn't mean to react the way i wanted to.... but seriously, i really had it up to my boiling point to have my studies jeopardized.
i never wanted my bro to pay my studies. all i needed was his cooperation to get myself a loan, in fact, i already got all the documents ready and i could just proceed with it. in the end, and last minute, he said he'll help me with the fees and got me promised to pay him back when i'm ready. how can i not be grateful for that?
but the thing is: he recently, very recently, upgraded his puny Kia Picanto to a whooping Honda Accord. not only that, my mum has been unemployed and her income very heavily depended on my bro, who naturally had to give more than he should. there, i started to worry.... and apparently, my worse fears came true...
i don't have any control over his expenses; what he should buy, how he should plan since he's burden with such heavy responsibilities. just thinking of them, i sincerely felt bad. but I DIDN'T ASK HIM TO HELP ME PAY!
oh boy, i do sound ingrateful....
i'm not surprised that he felt obliged to help me. maybe he saw that he's kind of responsible for my difficulties... plus the fact that i'm his sister. after all, it's like there's only one person in my family who can go further his/her studies: whoever is eligible to attain their degree 1st. and my bro happened to be the lucky one.
sigh...
i'll be taking up a loan. and apparently my salary was just a tad bit lower than the required minimum to apply for an individual loan. or not, i need a joint applicant.
i won't be asking for my bro to help. if he would agree to my choice of loan in the 1st place, he wouldn't have gotten into such tight situation. so naturally, i'm looking for better options:
1. is to try tapping into Gio's potential and get a pay raise - it could be negotiating for a higher rank or probably try going to backend ops...
2. find a eligible person who has a minimum income of $1000 to be my joint applicant...
i would definitely prefer option 1, coz' it's like i don't need to drag anyone else into this studies thing. enough people i got involved - my dad and bro. now i'm thinking how to pay both of them back include the bank loan. think, even how much i earn, i'll probably be bogged down for the next 10 years or so by this loan thinggie.
looks like i have just SO MUCH things to take care....
sigh...
after like dragging for more than 1 month, with multiple warnings from my school, to the final email from the school that my assignments will not be graded if i did not pay up my fees, my brother FINALLY paid my fees.
i know, i should have been more understanding and appreciative. i didn't mean to react the way i wanted to.... but seriously, i really had it up to my boiling point to have my studies jeopardized.
i never wanted my bro to pay my studies. all i needed was his cooperation to get myself a loan, in fact, i already got all the documents ready and i could just proceed with it. in the end, and last minute, he said he'll help me with the fees and got me promised to pay him back when i'm ready. how can i not be grateful for that?
but the thing is: he recently, very recently, upgraded his puny Kia Picanto to a whooping Honda Accord. not only that, my mum has been unemployed and her income very heavily depended on my bro, who naturally had to give more than he should. there, i started to worry.... and apparently, my worse fears came true...
i don't have any control over his expenses; what he should buy, how he should plan since he's burden with such heavy responsibilities. just thinking of them, i sincerely felt bad. but I DIDN'T ASK HIM TO HELP ME PAY!
oh boy, i do sound ingrateful....
i'm not surprised that he felt obliged to help me. maybe he saw that he's kind of responsible for my difficulties... plus the fact that i'm his sister. after all, it's like there's only one person in my family who can go further his/her studies: whoever is eligible to attain their degree 1st. and my bro happened to be the lucky one.
sigh...
i'll be taking up a loan. and apparently my salary was just a tad bit lower than the required minimum to apply for an individual loan. or not, i need a joint applicant.
i won't be asking for my bro to help. if he would agree to my choice of loan in the 1st place, he wouldn't have gotten into such tight situation. so naturally, i'm looking for better options:
1. is to try tapping into Gio's potential and get a pay raise - it could be negotiating for a higher rank or probably try going to backend ops...
2. find a eligible person who has a minimum income of $1000 to be my joint applicant...
i would definitely prefer option 1, coz' it's like i don't need to drag anyone else into this studies thing. enough people i got involved - my dad and bro. now i'm thinking how to pay both of them back include the bank loan. think, even how much i earn, i'll probably be bogged down for the next 10 years or so by this loan thinggie.
looks like i have just SO MUCH things to take care....
Sunday, April 08, 2007
going through emo phase
just when i thought, "finally it's my RD", the day passes me like it never started in the 1st place.
i woke up this morning, wasting my time to fix that stupid printer, my afternoons were spent on project discussions, and my evenings were dinner with YM and his family. after an eventful day, i still have to rush my other projects by the timeline given. hoping i would have the next day avail to do my projects as well but no, i'm working again.
somehow, i'm already missing having to look forward to Fridays coz it's Saturday the next day. and i always have 2 straight days of rest where i can catch up with my life (if i ever had any to begin with).
other than complaining, i know i should have been more aggressive to change my lifestyle. i've been looking out but there isn't an ideal or even close to ideal jobs out there for me. or at least, something i would see myself dealing with. it kinds of depresses me, coz i know i've to deal with irregular timings longer than expected. probably i was never the patient kind to wait and wait. well, when i've set my mind on certain things and i don't see why i should delay and make myself miserable. right?
no, i don't want Sales. i'm so sick and tired of sales jobs that could make me puke even thinking about it. but sales jobs sprawled almost everywhere on medias. even deceiving titles like Marketing Execs are dealing with sales. blah!
probably, the 1st step to marketing could be Gio's backend? maybe, maybe....
nights everybody... love y'all...
i woke up this morning, wasting my time to fix that stupid printer, my afternoons were spent on project discussions, and my evenings were dinner with YM and his family. after an eventful day, i still have to rush my other projects by the timeline given. hoping i would have the next day avail to do my projects as well but no, i'm working again.
somehow, i'm already missing having to look forward to Fridays coz it's Saturday the next day. and i always have 2 straight days of rest where i can catch up with my life (if i ever had any to begin with).
other than complaining, i know i should have been more aggressive to change my lifestyle. i've been looking out but there isn't an ideal or even close to ideal jobs out there for me. or at least, something i would see myself dealing with. it kinds of depresses me, coz i know i've to deal with irregular timings longer than expected. probably i was never the patient kind to wait and wait. well, when i've set my mind on certain things and i don't see why i should delay and make myself miserable. right?
no, i don't want Sales. i'm so sick and tired of sales jobs that could make me puke even thinking about it. but sales jobs sprawled almost everywhere on medias. even deceiving titles like Marketing Execs are dealing with sales. blah!
probably, the 1st step to marketing could be Gio's backend? maybe, maybe....
nights everybody... love y'all...
it all begins with a printer...
i'm like so suay can? when i needed to use the printer, the stupid hardware has to give me all sorts of unsolved problems just to prevent me from using it. i've log in a call to HP before and like after a good whole half an hour (or more) of troubleshooting, getting me to press this buttons and that which it did not improve the situation, the helpdesk engineer told me that it may be due to the expiry of my colored cartridge.
i felt like wasted my time kind of thing.
so well, i went to Challenger at Funan to get ink cartridges and also shopped for my lappie bag, laptop cooler pad and some lappie cleaning aid. so i ended up spending about 150 bucks altogether. fyi, my lappie bag is an economical one, not the expensive fella which i had my eyes fixed on. and also, YM applied for the membership which cost about 30 bucks so i can get rebates on each an every product i purchased on the spot!
so i replaced the ink cartridge and the stupid message still stayed.
i got fed up, i went online to download the basic printer driver. and guess what? i can print even though that stupid message of asking me to "Print Alignment Page" did not go away!!
1stly, i thought i could finally get my work done, and also at the same time, i felt so stupid. it's like wasted so much of my time lor!! oh nvm, at least, i managed to get things going.
it's my RD today. have a meet up with my groupmates for projects... haix. i'll update more later, tonight. at the meantime, hope you guys enjoyed ur weekends!!
i felt like wasted my time kind of thing.
so well, i went to Challenger at Funan to get ink cartridges and also shopped for my lappie bag, laptop cooler pad and some lappie cleaning aid. so i ended up spending about 150 bucks altogether. fyi, my lappie bag is an economical one, not the expensive fella which i had my eyes fixed on. and also, YM applied for the membership which cost about 30 bucks so i can get rebates on each an every product i purchased on the spot!
so i replaced the ink cartridge and the stupid message still stayed.
i got fed up, i went online to download the basic printer driver. and guess what? i can print even though that stupid message of asking me to "Print Alignment Page" did not go away!!
1stly, i thought i could finally get my work done, and also at the same time, i felt so stupid. it's like wasted so much of my time lor!! oh nvm, at least, i managed to get things going.
it's my RD today. have a meet up with my groupmates for projects... haix. i'll update more later, tonight. at the meantime, hope you guys enjoyed ur weekends!!
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