my life right now...

it has been about nearly 1 month since my mother and her gang moved out. it seemed like i'm leading some solitary life out here. even though i'm enjoying the peaceful at home now, i can't help feeling abit.... lonely, at times. maybe i grew up in a noisy environment, in a fairly big family with 2 older bro and a mum who can't shut up. so the sudden quietness at home became abit too loud at times. and the existence of my dad..... almost barely there. we hardly have chats, and we don't always managed to see each other. sometimes when he's back, i'll be soundly asleep. or when he's at home, i'll be at work. is this the life i wished i had? well, not really.

it's pretty sad, really. my family became so broken.

and now even though i have my broadband up and running, i need to pay both the residential and broadband bills, on top of my current commitment. seriously, i could hardly breathe! i began to wonder if i could set up some charity fund thing for me... then good people like u can donate to the pathetic me.....



some happier news: i'll be expecting a new ceiling fan and a Queen bed in my room! the fan will be sponsored by my dad coz' he had the fan in the living and his room during the time my mum was around. so he wasn't too willing to have one in my room then. now, he is obliged to get one fixed for me. however, the new fan would be placed in the living room and the existing one would transfer to my room for "proper decoration sake" (so both rooms would be of the same design which my dad claims is more proper). oh whatever lah.

and the Queen, oh my QUEEN! i'm like super duper excited lor! gonna have a big bed all by myself!

finally, i went to seek for beds like after so long about me harping about it. YM accompanied me and even had newspaper cuttings on furniture shops having sale on beds! in the end, we only like went 1 of his selected venue from his newspaper cuttings coz' it was like on-the-way. we actually went to visit The Furniture Mall instead. somehow, the place wasn't bustling with people. so most if the shops were like empty from crowds. hence we only visited some shops where there're people in them so the salesperson wouldn't bother us testing beds. tee hee!

anyway, the beds were like so ex lar. mattress itself already cost us more than 1k, not talking about the bed frame. if i'm a newlywed, maybe that would be necessary lar... or not, siao ah! but i have my mind pretty much made up at one of the bed (w bedframe) which cost me exactly 1k in one of the shops. thinking that the mattress is Dunlopillo, i thought it's quite worth it even though i wasn't too fond of the headboard.

see see look look until it struck me to visit Courts Megastore. YM apparently complimented together with my spontanenity and headed down to Tampines! hur hur, so happy!

and then, ta-da! found the bed which was like 一见钟情! the price was 1k also, with 4-star medium-firm pocket spring mattress (almost similar to the Dunlopillo) and a definitely MUCH nicer bed frame. plus interest-free instalments with credit card (from YM, of course).... i just have to contain my excitment and the impulsiveness to seal the deal at once. darn! YM said it's better to go home and ensure the measurement of the bed wouldn't eat up my room. but i was thinking, i used to have a queen bed before it spoilt, of course confirm can fit into my room de ma! anyway, it comes with freebies like 2 pillows, 1 bolster and 1 mattress protector. shiok!

so, i can't wait to like head back to Courts and buy that bed. it's like so snuggly and all! ARGH! but 1st, i need to get the ceiling fan up and running before the bed comes in. coz' right now i'm just surviving on a really small table fan and it's even warm just sleeping on the floor mattress.

that's pretty much it for now. let's see if there'll be anything new till then...


and WELCOME HOME BELLIE! Ra, hope to see you back home soon...


Mei, i'll be here for u... =)

i'm back... not for long

hi all, sorry for the lack of news from my side. well, alot of things happened and things are quite different now lor. so, i'm still adapting and trying the make the best out of the shitty arrangments i'm in.

my mum and bro had moved out for about 3 weeks now. and not too long after they've left, i housed temporarily at YM's place. my house undergo some dumb upgrading and the room i'll be sleeping would be invaded by bangalas in the morning from Mon to Sat, as early as 7.30am. worse still, the whole house would be like so dusty and all, and i need proper rest when i'm home from work. and i sent Fuji to my mum's place.

when i was at YM's, i don't exactly have another cable to hook up to their internet connection. even i had my lappie with me, i don't hv the luxury of going online and blog like i wished to. which explained the lack of post this month. so, why i can blog now is coz' YM's sis is not at home now and i quickly take this opportunity to blog. ha...

i'm not working today, took an urgent leave. i'm having my papers tomorrow and the day after - Tues at 6.30pm and Wed at 9am (and i'm on leave for both days as well). and my actual reason for my leave is coz' i'm having some serious jitters about my papers and i felt i don't have the time to study for my Wed papers. it's a law paper which require a blardy lot of memory work. i doubt i'll be able to make it with my memory after my evening papers. so, oh well.... this is like my 1st time giving such nonsense like "urgent leave" in my whole career history, and for some reason, it didn't feel good. but i couldn't care less now, coz' exams are more impt and i'm jux a part-time, y'know.

i'm finally going home tonight, or that's at least what i've arranged. i'll have no internet connection and got to sign up a new one. of coz, i have to pay the internet connection and all.

plus, my insensitive moronic father is out trying to cheat my money. he demanded that i'll have to contribute 200 bucks every month for the bills and "miscellaneous fees". yar, everything i pay, then he only need to pay for his own beers huh? and he added on that if my bro want to stay, he would have to pay him 200 dollars for all these. yar right... 200 + 200 = 400. he needs 400 every month to buy what? abalone? 1st-class maggie mee? or whiskey? then what's next? ask for more money so he can jux stay home and shake leg, while he worked freelance as a cab driver when he needed extra cash?

it's so blardy ridiculous lor. i rebutted, telling him to gimme the PUB bills and i'll pay. then he added, what about the miscellaneous fees? fuck off lor... he doesn't need to cook for me, i don't need him to buy any necessities at home, neither does he need to pay Fuji's food. in fact, all these "miscellaneous fees" i handle myself from like i'm 17 yrs old till now. snort...

i can foresee a war with him when i move back....

sometimes, i'm amazed how come i'm not in some depression where i go on a killing spree and hack off my parent's head, since they never seemed to use their brain for a good cause. geez...

YM will try to offload some of my financial craps when he can. but again, he can't exactly support his parents and me as well. come to think abt it, i began to wonder if quitting Giordano and work part-time while i juggle my studies and my finances is such a brilliant idea i've made. and when my intentions were purely for me to peacefully complete my studies and move on to something else stable.

how i wished my dad would GROW UP and stop trying to live off people when he still has the ability to feed himself.