on the fateful 15th July, I was called into my boss's room and she decided to do a review with me. i knew i had somewhat screwed up on a business review and little would i expect my head was actually on the chopping board. so she said she was disappointed in me for my performance and she didn't know if i was interested in the job. till today, i don't know why would she constantly have a perception that i wasn't interested. if i'm not interested, would i have taken up this job despite knowing the company is shifting to Penjuru!?! Duh. well anyways, she said i didnt meet up to her expectations and hence she felt that FMCG industry was not my cup of tea. seriously, who was she to judge whether i was suitable or not. having said that, she paused awkwardly and i had to ask her, "are you suggesting that i leave". she had the cheek to act coy and replied that she was not expecting me to leave within 24 hours but i could either serve a 2 week's notice since i was not confirmed, or a month's notice. i felt slapped in the face.
i held back my tears after i left the office. i was fuming inside. i was glad my colleague was with me and told her everything. her eyes widen in shock, and she looked away, commenting that it was unbelieveable, totally disgusted by the boss. she felt it was unfair that the boss changed my portfolio and then took this excuse to lengthen my probation, and now this. and she did bring up many ways that the boss could've done and needed not to resort to such ways. furthermore, it would sure take more than just 10 months to groom one person. and guess what? i only took on this new portfolio for 3 months.
there was sure many unjustified feelings. i felt lost, as i didn't know what to do next. i volunteered to serve 1 month's notice partly due to my insecurities. i wouldn't know whether i would be able to get a job. and since i could prolonged my stay a little more, it would also mean more money.
after the weekend, i came to terms about it, after lots of praying. and yes, it was His doing. He knew i wasn't happy with work (coz' i spoke to Him before) and this happened. so that weekend, i immediately sent out my resumes. and guess what? i had 4 calls that week to invite me down for interviews! Alleluia! so yup, i felt the immense happiness from within. come to think about it, it was all in good timing. this period was a good time to look for jobs and my skills are possibly in demand right now. the feeling was liberating!
so on goodwill (and some said i shouldn't have, considering how i was being treated), i stayed till yesterday, a good 2 weeks and cleared out my outstanding leaves till the 17th. and i helped to get the monthly reports done for her as well. ain't i nice to that horrible boss?? whether nice or not, i thought i should just fulfill my responsibilities, even if she didn't appreciate it.
and for a parting gift, she made me missed out an interview yesterday. whatever i needed to hand over, the main part of it was already done last week. in fact, i hadn't followed up on anything ever since i was serving notice. so there wasn't much to be handed over actually. yet, at 4:30pm yesterday, she made me sat through with her every single detail of the working process. it's either she really didn't know what to do despite micro-managing me for 10 mths, or she easily lost touch with what went on, which may not be very possible coz' she was micro-managing me all these while! oh well, so yeah, the interviewer called in the midst of the handover and asked if i was on my way. i had no choice but to tell her to postpone the interview, however, she apologetically told me they would reschedule if there's still vacancy. bravo, isn't it? no thanks to that boss. luckily it was an interview that i wasn't too keen but wouldn't mind trying out. otherwise, i would have been in a fit.
so today would be my 1st day lazing at home. as much as i was looking forward to a break, i am also worried how long this break would last. and i'm grateful that my brother has been supportive. i told him briefly what happened and i may require financial help till i secure another job, and he was ready to help me out. he's cool.
i'll be praying for a new job that i would grow, and love, and would have a good team and boss. that's almost the perfect job isn't it? i know it's tough for all criterias to be met, but i feel tht i need a job with a good team and boss. the job may be sucky, but it's the team and boss that would keep me around. and i'm leaving to His hands to guide me through this. and yes, i'll still be sending my resumes.
till then, i'll hang around the house, try to motivate myself to catch up with my housework (i have not been upkeeping my room...), take this opportunity to spend more time with my mum and meet her for dinner, catch up with my movies online, go to the library.... actually, i think i have quite alot of things planned. :D
