3 more days - it's my rest day

i slept and slept and slept. haa... despite that i caught up with my sleep, i felt quite bored at home. while all my peers are slogging at work, there i am, nothing to do. should it be a blessing in disguise?

anyway, below's the rest of my schedule:

Friday - 2pm to 9pm
Saturday - Morning (till 6.30pm)
Sunday - Afternoon (2pm to close)

then on Monday, it'll be my rest day again. as YM would be touching down Singapore on Monday at about 3am in the morning, i would be driving my bro's car over to fetch him from the airport. so on Sunday, i will probably have my supper and rest at home before heading to the airport.

sometimes, i feel like clubbing. but i can't find people to go. and most of the times, i miss having the spare cash for retail therapy. i dun seem to do what i used to do, and i'm feeling imbalanced. till now, i couldn't understand how i would still manage to have the cash for clubbing AND shopping when i 1st came out to work after graduation. and best part would be me going clubbing for more than 3 times a month! i was a supergirl... hahaha...

seriously, i miss clubbing alot... i like the feeling of letting go with some help of the alcohol. dancing's my forte. and having my best laid skills go to waste, i can't bear. LOL.

maybe when i've satisfied that, retail's therapy the next!

yawn! i had such a fruitful sleep! feel so much contented. i slept so much i could have died sleeping, i tell you. haaa... song!

anyway, i was posted to Raffles Place's Giordano (in Raffles Xchange) on full shift yesterday. the shift was signficantly shorter than Bugis, but it was so much more boring over there. because, the crowd would only come in during the lunch break and after office hours. in between, i helped out in the housekeeping and stuff just to get time to past faster. nothing much really...

in comparison to Bugis, even when there's no crowd, there're always so much to do. keeping the shop tidy was already a challenge as anytime a customer requires my help, i would have to drop my whatevers and service them. in addition, there're constant interactions with other team members to amuse one another. haaa...

and also, i've received my pay. prorated. =/ well, better than nothing la huh? i'm jux thinking how to survive till my next pay especially when my handphone bill is coming. i'm well prepared to see the cost. whenever there's a chance, YM would talk to me over the phone. i'm paying the talktime charges as his thai service line had incoming call free. using starhub IDD018 charges me like normal local talktime charges - 15 cents per min. and i've clocked nearly 5 hours of outgoing calls. with a quick mental calculation, it's easy to guess how much my bill would be when the letter comes. he said he would help me pay part of it. how much, i don't know.

one thing for sure, no leisure activities for the next month...

5 more days...

yeap, he's coming home soon...

i'll blog tomorrow, coz' i'm drained out today. yesterday i came home too late as one of my team members' leaving. so we went to Lau Pa Sat for supper. had fun, yeah. but the consequences for staying out late and having to work full shift the next day? exhaustion... bleah...

anyway, my full shift @ raffles place would be changed to 6pm to close @ Bugis Junction instead. =)

good night, sleep well...

Day i'm-too-lazy-to-count - mild insomia???

i don't understand how come i couldn't sleep at all last night. i stayed wide awake till close to 5am in the morning. dumb. luckily i didn't develop a groggy headache when i woke up earlier.

anyway, this week's schedule is like quite sucky: -

Monday (today) - Afternoon (2pm till Close)
Tuesday - Full @ Raffles Place ( o.O)
Wednesday - Full @ Raffles Place (O.O)

i'll be resting on Thursday. if i still have the cash, i would literally go for Ladies' Night after work on Wednesday. haa... but no money no talk!

i can't remember the rest of my schedule and will do the necessary updates soon.


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anyway, i've change my blog layout. wanted to change a long time already but i'm lazy to source for a new one. so ended up using one of blogspot's default. well, at least it's simple lah...

Day-whatever - i'm agitated

maybe i'm suffering some mild depression. haa... snort. i don't understand how come i got so easily irritated. i was just joking with him, but didnt expect his feedback was pretty negative. so i end up pissing him off as well. hmm...

perhaps i wanted some attention from him. or at least him playing along but he took it for real. kaoz... was it coz' he wasn't too please that i didn't drop him a message all day long? hell...

one more week man... still have to suffer for another week. honestly, my patience is running out. even though it's not as if he's not coming back soon, but i kinda got use to lead my life without him. however, throughout these weeks it's not as if i'm leading my life "alone" as well. i still do reporting and messaging and crap. maybe i'm getting tired of the messaging-but-do-not-get-immediate-reply kind of thing. yeah, reason due to poor reception. fuck that...

it shows that i definitely sucks at maintaining long-distance relationship. thank god i don't have a boyfriend who's overseas studying.

i'm beginning to blabber.... stop me.

Day ?? - tired...

just got home from work, and it's a busy day today. well, i like to be busy rather than hanging around the shop doing nothing other than looking at passerby.

initially there would be an outing with the team but last minute was cancelled. so dumb. and i end up going home when i thought i could hang out a while more. suddenly, i was thinking of going clubbing. but a quick glance at my watch when i've reached my void deck, i thought otherwise. thinking of bathing and changing out, and having to rush out of the house.. by then when i've reached wherever, it would be quite late. furthermore, i'm quite tied till my pay day. to add it up, i'm exhausted.

tomorrow would be my rest day. it's a Sunday though, and it would be crowded islandwide. sigh... i wanted to occupy my rest day with some events (other than the choice of housework and sleeping) but i can't think of any. damn. watching a movie or chilling out would be ideal but.... well, see how it goes lah. anyway, tomorrow would be my 1st-in-charge's last day at Bugis Junction, see whether i'll be informed. however, it would be till they close shop. so i don't know what time that'll be though. hmm...

at the moment, i'm not thinking of anything else other than having a good shower and sufficient rest. any peeps i know who see this entry and you're available tomorrow, i'm free for dates. haa... you have my number, so ya, you know what to do aye? =)

so long peeps....




and he's coming home!!! 1 more week to go!! yeah....!!

Day 18 - headache...

today's my rest day. phew! the past 2 days' schedule had been quite cruel on me.

Monday - Afternoon (2pm to Close)
Tuesday - Morning to 9pm (Plus shop meeting at 8.30am)

despite that i was awfully tired when i got home on Tuesday, i couldn't really sleep very well. perhaps i was too tired and worried that i would overslept, therefore i slept lightly. in the end, i got a probing headache all the way till i end work at 9pm. the moment i got home, the headache got worst. even trying to fall asleep was just as bad.

woke up this morning, the pounding headache has lessen but still there. maybe i didn't take any medicine, that's why.

the next 3 days of my schedule would be as below:

Thursday - Morning to 9pm
Friday - Afternoon
Saturday - Morning (till 6pm)

as for Sunday, would be my rest day. heh...

at the meantime, i need to get some panadol to cure my headache. ha...


he's coming home soon!! he's coming home!! 11 more days to go...

Day 14 - some misconceptions??

i'm a week old with Giordano and i'm doing good. or at least, i'm enjoying what i'm doing at this moment. despite that i get really physically shag-out at the end of the day, i'm happy. however, i don't understand those questionable looks i get from some people, including colleagues, who happened to ask about my educational qualifications.

yes, i'm a proud diploma holder. so? doesn't mean that i'm a dip-grad i have to look for white-collar jobs y'know. i've been there, done that.

i guess, i understand where these people coming from. after all, all of our folks pushed us to get our certs are purely based on "you study more so you'll get good jobs in future and earn big bucks". i came from that kind of upbringing as well. seriously, it's time to change these opinions. it's really degrading despite i'm holding a decent job.

worse still, i've heard from my trainer that one of her staff got verbally abused by a lady customer who got pissed off by some of our "inflexible" policies. that lady pointed at our staff and said to her daughter (in front of her), "girl, look at that jie jie? if you don't work hard, you'll be like her next time..."

of coz, i also agree that you don't require a dip-cert to do what i'm doing. but how many young or experienced working adults out there enjoy what they're doing? i guess, if it weren't for their responsibilities to put food on their rice tables, they would have throw in the towel a long time ago. given a choice, i believe most of them would in turn do other things instead of slogging out their guts for incompetent bosses who backstabbed them.

anyway, that's not really my point.

i know some of my friends also couldn't get it (even though they didn't put it across to me) when i've told them about my job. i can feel it lah. i'm from the sales and right now, i still have not managed to get away from that. i hated the feeling of chasing individual figures and being competed and compared among colleagues. maybe i'm incompetent from the start, that's why i felt the unnecessary pressure. however, at this moment, i don't have to bother so much about the figures because the load has been evenly distributed to the rest of the team. each and every members are responsible for the overall results, which i like it!

there's no much to meet the eye in every job. then again, even before the public gets to understand anything, they began to judge and discriminate the role.

Singapore, it's time to grow up.

Day 12...

i've tried to blog yesterday but i've realized that the site seems to have poor bandwidth during at night. looks like if i wanna blog, it would have to be in the day where loading blogspot would be faster. hmm...

i'm working later today and i've still time. in fact, my reporting time would be at 1.45pm and allocated outlet would be Bugis Junction. hmm.. not too bad a location as long as i'm not appointed to any of the outlets in the east. since my reporting time would be that late, i took the opportunity to rest as much as i could after having to attend training since morning till evening.

anyway, i was starting to have real fun with the training group though. so it was quite sad that all of us were split up. during this 3 days, we didn't exchange our numbers which i found it quite weird though. but i guess, we would only be acquaintained for just 3 days so how much bond have we developed in the 1st place? nonetheless, it's a real pity that all of us wouldn't meet each other anymore. furthermore, the group was beginning to get cohesive.

one fine day, i'm wondering they would even remember me...

did i say that i don't really enjoy making new friends? unless the other party warms up to me, i'm not really a person to be proactive anymore. maybe i haven't been making new friends, so i kind of "lost" my mojo. but definitely not easy as it was anymore....

i'm feeling quite low. probably because i'm worried how would the group be. i hate to meet people who've an attitude. super turn-off. even my status as a senior, i'm not much different to a part-timer coz' everything i need to learn. maybe i'll have certain authority, but that would be much later. when i couldn't take care of myself, how can i take care of others?

hopefully all goes well... alright, i need to eat my lunch and then go bathe. and off to work!

Day 9... My 1st Day...

i underestimated the whole retail thinggie. seriously, i didn't think highly of it. coz', well, it's a retail job, where could it really lead you to? also, serving customers are a piece of cake! i enjoy doing so and never thought it was a tough job, really. come to think about it, my only experience was during my poly days where i took Haagen Daz as my part-time job. ha!

i guess, the whole challenge would be leading a team and tending the shop myself and practically taking charge. wow. that's something new...

now i'm still going through the training period and things are new. new challenges definitely waiting ahead of me. i think i would be ready.

at the meantime, i think i better not get oversensitive that people would scrutinized what i've chose to do. despite it's a decent job, but after all, it's quite a great difference from what i was doing previously to what i've taken up today.

i'll do what i know best and will bring out the best in me.

Day 6 - Starting work soon!

okie, i felt i've not rested enough. hee... i guess it's more of i didn't want to leave my comfort zone. after having to sleep more than 10 hours a day, waking at noon, surf the webbie the whole day, seriously life like this is luxury. maybe if i don't have to work and money comes rolling in, it'll be perfect! i mean, i could just hire a private jet where i could travel to Hong Kong for lunch, then to Europe for dinner, stop by at Thailand for supper and late night shopping and then travel back to Singapore for a nice rest. i could probably have that once to twice a week! kekekeke...

let's snap out of it.

i've accepted the offer with Giordano and will be receiving training this Monday morning at the HQ in Paya Lebar for 3 days before i'll be placed at one of the retail shops for OJT. i've bought a new pair of sneakers from Converse and 3 other pairs of toe socks. and i guess i need a couple more shirts as well. hmm...

i've took YM's advice to just go for it and not think too much. coz' the more i'd consider for the job, the more reluctant i would be. so might as well take it up and see how it goes. furthermore, my main objective to is find a job to stand in till i would have other plans made while i've decided to continue my studies at the end of the year. furthermore, at this point in time, it's tough to tell what would happen when the time comes.

perhaps, tomorrow i'll drop by the mall again. i'll try to fish my wardrobe if i've anymore casual tees. or not, maybe i'll get a couple more till i get my uniform allowance. actually, i've more spags and tubes than tees. haa.....


spending my weekends alone... =/

Brokeback Mountain

my 1st R21 show - what a disappointment. think i picked the wrong movie, or perhaps, most R21 movies are stupid.

the storyline is touching but how could Lee Ang actually dragged the whole show for more than 2 hours?! trying to make our money worth?? goodness! or he's trying to put across to us that guys can be quite cowards....

i don't discriminate gays, neither do i support them. what i felt injusticed about the show was that the gays could just eloped together and fulfill being with each other! why bother even trying to start and maintain a normal family with wife and kids?? since they loved each other so much, why bring their family agonies which they don't deserve? hmm...

maybe i'm a chop-chop person, i don't like to be wishy-washy when it comes to relationship. that's why i couldn't appreciate such "artistic" film. bleah!

ok, to give some credits to the scriptwriter, i'm touched about the feelings between the characters. at least, it's something unusual to me. i mean, all these while we've watched "straight" or "normal" shows where it's love between different genders. so ya, maybe i'll develop a different opinion about gays.

then again, even if Lee Ang try his luck on such film and no matter how many awards he've bagged for that masterpiece, sorry i won't entertain.

Day 5 - he made my day... =)

this week is gradually coming to an end. i don't know whether it has been fast or not. i believe if i'm still working, i would probably be VERY relieved that one week has passed and looking for to weekends. but this weekend, and the next 3 other weekends, i'll be alone....

yesterday, i've spent the whole night watching a korean bittersweet romance comedy till this morning at 8am. ha! life's good! 16 discs, and i finished it in one breathe. amazing! and i could only do that when i'm free and really free like this. or not, i couldn't really find energy to even watch a 45 min episode. kekekeke... it's time like this, i didn't feel like working anymore. haaa.... tai tais life is really shiok! perhaps, the only difference now is that i've no money lah... heee... so embarassing...

missed by darling, dearly.... waiting for him to be back can be really agonizing.



i was hoping that he would reply my message, but i understand that he's busy and may not checked his phone regularly. however, he FINALLY replied. =) even though his message did state that he would not call me tonight, i'm still glad he replied. hee...

3rd day...

having to rest for the 3rd day, i could almost feel my lazy-bone slowly creeped in. imagine, i could sleep at wee hours and get up at noon. i do nothing else other than surfing webbie, chatting on MSN and helped out with some of the chores (when my mood says it). despite that i wished i would be able to go out to stretch some muscles, i'm pretty contented to stay home and save money. =)

i went for a short interview at Giordano. haa... thought to give it try. think at some point during the interview, i felt i was blabbering. =P whatever it is, i still have to attend a 2nd interview with the Training Manager or HR Administrator. in fact, either one of them are s'pose to conduct the interview for my position that i've applied for. however, one of them was on MC and the other was not in the office. anyway, i think it wouldn't be too much of a problem that i would be shortlisted for the 2nd interview, but it's a matter of which position would they shortlist me for. that would my worry ultimately.

i'll be going for studies at the end of the year and i need the money. if they're to put me in the much junior position, i'm afraid i might not be able to cater to my loan.

then again, worry also no use. most importantly is to wait for the call for a 2nd interview, or not, no point frowning over what might not even come true. ha..


and i miss him....

Day 2... he can't see me pout...

i told him not to countdown so as not to demoralized him. on contrary, i'm like going to blog every single day that he's not around. =/

i'm a good girl. i helped my mum with some housework - vacuuming and mopping the floor. now the floor is squeaky clean and cooling. see already also feel shiok. *grinz* later, i'll be bringing Fuji for his vaccination jabs. maybe at the meantime, i'll get him some new toys and chewies.

looks like it's quite hard to save even though i'm not working. but i guess it's time to give this poor boy some pampering. ever since TRR moved office and there're so much changes, i was quite lost and not exactly in the mood of taking up any other responsibilities when i felt that i needed more pampering than anybody else. ha... but since now i'm enjoying my break, might as well make myself useful than constantly banging on the PC.

like what YM said: if only he knew, he wouldn't have left for Thailand. then we would be able to spend our breaks together. but as if i will know that i'll get myself landed this way. haa... however, it's still nice to know he's sweet... =)

sigh... felt so lost without him. don't know what i can do during his absence. definitely need to get a job.... argh!

soon, i'll be starting a new week - freedom. i don't need to frown or get whiny about having to go to work tomorrow, nor have to get dreadful and worried about having to attend the senseless meetings. i felt like a freewoman. if only life would be like that, so carefree, needn't to worry about anything else other than eat, sleep and play. but then again, no money ah!! so dead....

tonite he will depart for his month-long strenous training in Thailand. i wasn't really worrying for him. i thought i would but i wasn't. to me, i'm thinking of "get over and done with it". then soon, he will officially retreive his pink I/C and be a normal civilian. haa.... however, i've heard that he may have other plans... hmm...

i'm gonna be so lonely, nothing to do. my peers would be off to work and he wouldn't be around. i'll probably do my mum a favor and help out with the household that she has forsaken for her own freedom. at the meantime, i need to sort out some future plans - work and maybe study stuff.

i can't afford to let me bank runs dry again, so need to get some plans concrete soon. till then, i'll be savouring every single moment of my freedom.... wahahaha... *evil grin*

my final farewell....

as i walked out of the office at one of the units in Clifford Centre, i suddenly felt nostalgic. no, not the building but the company. ironic. i remembered clearly how i hated going to work, dread having to attend twice weekly meetings and hitting sales targets. nonetheless, i'm being sentimental. seriously, if it ain't the drastic changes they've made to the present company, i would considered contented working for them.

i've signed and agreed on the termination notice, cleared my stuff on the table, did my handovers and left almost immediately. i'm gonna missed my rickety computer who does not fail to hang on my every once in a while, and of coz', the people - my team.

my colleagues voiced their concerns and called me one by one. i'm pretty contented to have known that i'm somewhat "part of them", despite that they've known each other much longer than the present "colleagues" status. some of them even went through pregnancy together, way before they ever got a chance to be colleagues again. they felt injustice and shocked about the bosses' decisions, which i'm already quite glad. i don't need them to run an extra mile to plead for me coz' i never really wanted to stay any longer. i should say, it's a blessing that i've been terminated.

definitely, it's just not nice to be "terminated", however, i'll get over it. i've more important stuff (or at least things which require my attention) to worry about than to brood over the fact. fuck it.

well, i'll be free and available for the next god-knows-how-long and so, i guess it's gonna be another time like these that i need to find out what i want to do. quite tiring, actually. but at least, i've some plans that i would like to carry out by the end of the month. before i say too much, i better keep my fingers crossed that things would go on smoothly for the next few weeks... i guess. ha.... God Bless Me.... =)