after a hiatus of almost 2 months, and out of job, i needed a channel to vent. well, not really venting as well, coz' i don't really know what's for me to write. i have been depressed, with no boyfriends, no job, no other distractions. it's quite sad for me actually. at least if i'm working, it's good enough to keep me distracted. but nope, don't have anything. then again, i'm really grateful for friends to keep me entertained regularly, once a week at least. it's great for some booze, and hanging out, enjoying each other's company.
my brother recently reminded me of the book he gave me as a present. i shelved it the moment i saw it, and don't ask me why. i guess the book didn't seem very appealing to me. haaa. it was until Jacob shared with me about this movie he caught - the Secret, and then i realize i had this book shelved in my cupboard. and it was uncanny that my brother asked me a couple of days later whether i'd read the book. i was thinking, since i had nothing going on, might as well just read it. after all, i still had some time to finish my library books. i take it as God's plan, to get me to read what it was.
i finished the book in less than 2 days. honestly, i was greatly inspired. and in a certain way, i wanted to know if it really works for me, especially when i really wanted this job at Medtronics. i went for the 1st interview, and i hadn't have any news about the 2nd interview for almost 3 weeks. i was getting really depressed. the job was possibly the best among all other job interviews i've went! to top it up, the location of the office is like back "home", a neighbor of the Brownland, and most importantly, it's a regional job! even though traveling would only limit within the Asean countries, it would still be a great start for me! i REALLY want this job SUPER DUPER UBER BADLY!!
there was NOTHING about this job that i couldn't handle! not saying it's easy peasy, just that it's only about the product knowledge which i had none. so that would be the main challenge of the job. and also to handle events overseas, with different cultures and all that, yup, it'll be challenging. otherwise, it's nothing really new to me. yes, i SOOOOO want this job.
i couldn't stay in suspense any longer, so i called up the HR last week to check on the status. btw, i've sent 2 emails over the 3 weeks to check on the status but there was no reply. the HR told me that the Director (of some sort) is away on a business trip and would only be back next week, and they haven't went through any shortlisting yet. so if i'm shortlisted, they'll give me a call. Blessed the book, Blessed the Father! those were honey to my ears! i was worried sick, and was lucky to know they haven't went through the shortlisting process!
i'm now feeling so so SO nervous, every single day! one day i havent hear from them, every day i'll drown slowly by the build up anticipation! i wished i could get over and done with asap.
partly, i chose to keep my hopes up high, pinning every single day for this job, was also to prove to myself if the "law of attraction" stated in this book really works. i mean, they have a point that rich people only think about being rich, and not being poor. hence, the rich will gets richer. and now, i feel like there's something i could do to hasten the process....
"what things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them." Mark 11:24
suddenly, something struck me, right now, at this very moment..... i think i truly believe, but i'm not behaving like i'm receiving it! perhaps, it'll work......
i don't know if it's the psycho-ing that's working, but i seriously believe this job is mine. i can really FEEL it in my bones. and we shall see.
