i'm being compromised

Mambo in Zouk sucks.

it has went downhilled for quite some time and the management finally decided to go for a new look, a new concept maybe. so the whole upcoming reno will take about a month or so. thinking of such a short period of time, i'm seriously wondering how different will it be then.

however, that's not the point.

i seriously don't know what's so attractive of the current Zouk. the DJ spins a mix of unrecognized top 40s and retros. it isn't like the old Zouk where the DJ spins splendid collections of retro they once did. in addition, gentlemen have to pay a cover charge for sucky music now.

because of clubbing, it didnt occur to him to make it up for failed-attempts in the past few days for today. since when have i become so unimportant?

yes of course! this was preplanned since last week and i knew nuts about it (or perhaps i didnt remember). that would include the shopping on that past Monday with his friends while i had to be force to rest at home which i didnt want to. and the bad weather on Monday too, added up to not-able-to-meet-me. fair enough. i conceit defeat.

unfortunately, his great-great-grandmother passed away on Tuesday and i'm not complaining about that.

and ta-da! he's booking in tomorrow and i haven't even got the EQUAL chance than his friends to meet up with him! why don't i be his friends than his girlfriend? i'll be more honoured to have him spending time with me!

he did come down to look for me but i chose to make things difficult for him. i'm touched but i didn't wanna see him. for what? since he wouldn't be making it up for me today, i felt i didn't need the "pop by". i deserve more than that.

he may have the intentions to skip clubbing today but that was after he knew i was upset, which is something totally not out of initiative from the failed attempts and it would only make me feel bad. in fact, why have to wait till my face turned black then he just only suggested that he should change his plans? that is something which i don't consider it as SINCERITY.

seriously, how could he? how could he thought of proceeding with his plans when he knew i am upset about the past few days?

i'm so, so disappointed.