funeral ended.

the funeral had ended in tears and pain, and also, some kind of happiness and relief. the feelings all jumbled up. after all, granddaddy is 82 years old already and he is a great-grandfather. although that youngest member is not considered under our same surname, but technically speaking, he is still a great-grandparent.

i sincerely thank my friends who wanted to come and visit me at the funeral. i hope i wasn't too harsh about you guyz not coming over. i have my point of views la. and i felt it wasn't necessary.

1stly, funeral was not a joyous piece of news to be shared around. so i would rather keep mum and low profile about it.

2ndly, it's not very good for you guyz la. take it as i'm superstitous, but i meant well. funeral after all, if it's not a relative's, it's better not to attend. it's just.... no good la.

so, my granddaddy's being cremated. my heart felt painful when his nicely decorated-with-flowers coffin being transported to the furnace. i prayed silently, hoping he would find peace. and today, we're supposed to go collect his remains after yesterday's cremation. i couldn't go becoz' i gotta work. and it's a blardy FULL shift lor. !#$%@

haix...

his remains would be at the same temple with YM's grandfather. so when YM goes over, i'll tag along to pray ah gong as well. and i've yet to find out where's my grandma's tablet be since it's also at the same temple. and also, maybe can intro YM's grandfather to my grandparents, so can be friends friends ma, hor? kekekeke... you know i'm joking. DUH!

i'll be off on Sat and Sun coz' i got test to attend to.

so till then, i needa sleep liao. super sleepy. i'm a morning shift lor! argh! stupid planner. anyway, the roster planner is facing some problems now. apparently she somehow discovered and/or suspected that her BF is a married man with a kid! hmm.... poor girlie...

i'm such a gossiper! kekekeke...

i empathize her situation but i still feel her roster planning sucks. bleah!