for a moment, i'm thankful to be working, to get some matters off my mind...

but when work's over, i can't stop thinking.... and i was hoping i could find someone to distract me at the moment, but somehow, just none.

i feel sucky coz' i couldn't relate what's bothering me to anyone, not for now. i think i'm just hoping it would go away or something... but till then, i'm also hoping i could do something to end this misery...


what's worse? i think i'm falling sick. having a bad throat, lack of appetite, a slight blocked nose, an aching growing wisdom tooth, and also few attemptions to puke. believe that flu bug caught me...

issit because these the aftermath symptoms of ****? i didn't have the urge to **** and therefore i'm not intending to continue ****, which is only reserved for some occasions. i sincerely hope that's not the case.

i need some company, accompanied by some booze... but there's no booze, no company.



p/s the number of **** has nothing got to do with the word that i won't tell. so don't bother guessing... LOL.