i've broken down...

i still vaguely rmbr the reason the last time i broke down, related to work. and after switching jobs, i thought i might not be going through anything similar anymore. after all, i feel much better about my current job than the previous one. but then again, i still end up in tears.

thank goodness i let it all out, got over and done with it. it may not be very healthy but it felt so much better after that. i guess as much as i chose to bottle my emotions and vent it out in other ways than crying, i don't really face much of a choice. it just came, and i somehow let it out without control. in fact, i can't really control as much as i want to. ha...

i can't really go into details, coz' the last thing i want is my bosses coincidentally tripped upon this blog...

i still love my job despite what had happened. i seriously enjoys what i'm doing, no doubt! however there's always some inevitable flaws in everything and anything that makes it imperfect. but hell, i try not to make those "flaws" eat into me... trying hard to get use to it. or i should really get used to it.

i've never given up trying to make my mark there and i have goals for myself to achieve along the way. and i think i'm getting abit impatient already. if by certain time of the year and i'm still struggling like a novice, i think it's time to go. or maybe i will still persevere... i don't know. just see how things will go...

at the meantime, i need retail therapy... real soon...