one of my dearest cousins is getting married. she's only slightly younger than me. technically speaking she's only younger than me by a couple of months - but she's 21, i'm 22.
this is supposed to be a joyous occasion! however, this time it's going to be a quiet internal affair. and it's all because this marriage was uncalled for. to put it simply, it's a shotgun marriage.
it came upon as a shock, more than a pleasant surprise. somehow, it didn't occur to me this would happened to our family, and especially to her. now that reality slowly sets in, all i felt was bitter.
i wasn't her source of confidante. and i believe there was apparently NO ONE she could put her finger to. therefore, her secret was concealed till it couldn't be concealed anymore. she is 4 months pregnant now, or that's what i've heard. just 5 more months.... i just couldn't imagine it.
you know, wedding to me is something sacred, once-in-a-lifetime thinggie and therefore it should be somewhere grand, where everyone i love would come and give their blessings. and i could imagine how disappointing it is to have her once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to be treated so shabbily. not only that, with uncalled situations like this, who would have the mood to celebrate? also, despite we're in the millenium, the Y-generation kids, we still stay with the traditional adults with conservative mindset, how do we expect them to accept such harsh truth? worse still, these adults would only grab this opportunity to gossip and point fingers!
sigh... even if we youngsters could just go "oh ok...well, congrats", these adults would make sure their humiliation is HEARD. god, you should hear my mum, man.... she just wouldn't stop her toxicated mouth. sometimes, i get worried for her...
there's just so many questions in mind. my heart would ache when i could almost feel how traumatized she was when she found out what went wrong in her, and worse still, no one was there for her. and how come her blardy bastard husband-to-be DID NOT do ANYTHING sooner than now!
that arsehole may be 25, but seriously, i doubt he even has the capability to support a family. no, i don't have a very good impression of him despite i saw him a couple of times. well, being "looked" at from him is not exactly a very good feeling (or very right), especially when he is holding hands with my cousin. you know, that kind of gaze....
i feel that this marriage is like a no-choice thinggie. i know, shotgun was never once exactly a choice. but i felt that she couldn't hide her belly further and she doesn't have the courage to abort and therefore she just had to get married.
she's still in the midst of completing her degree, fyi. and if i'm not wrong, she's completing soon, real soon. it's like 1 or 2 more sems to go. gosh, what else could be worse?
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