glad i've managed to catch ker ker online.... been a good long while since i've talked to him. now that my god-nephew is here, all the more i foresee the slimming chances of seeing him again. his wife needs him more than i do, after all, she needs all the support she can get. i don't want to try ask him out coz' i know Rac is at her vulnerable stage, and the last thing i want her to get some post-natal depression which is indirectly caused by me.
despite such a long time, he still managed to take words out of my mouth. sometimes i wished to know how he managed to do that... i feel so at eased, i don't have to struggle with words, and with my feelings. he somehow knew what i'm going throught... i hoped i'm as sharp as him.
at this point in time, i just don't know what i want. it's frustrating actually, coz' at the end of the day after all that dates, i come home feeling empty. you know, just scared to make any commitments that i can't keep up with. ker ker advised me to just enjoy all the attention while it lasted, coz' after all i'm still not ready. true.
it just gets kind of tired. but i believe one day, things would eventually fall into place... just a matter of time, isn't it? how long more....
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