Back to reality...

for the past 2 days of my chalet, i am living in my dreams. a wonderful dream. a dream where there're only my bf and me, and my close knit friends. when i checked out this morning, my bf drove me home, i knew it's time to wake up.

i wouldn't say i have alot of fun during the event. neither would i say i didn't enjoy myself. this whole bday event was a quiet and simple one. i don't know whether i have celebrated, but i can say i'm honoured to have the company of my friends.

i can't really say that my group of friends are scattered, coz' they came and left at different timings. however, they seemed to know each other from my diary-x. introductions were made easy since diary-x was the hub for the "friendster-links".

i felt the warmth and the love of my friends. they made the event all so worthwhile. i knew i didnt make the wrong choice when i chose to only invite close friends and refrained from inviting too many.

i guess i know why i did not feel that this event is my bday event than a friend gathering thinggie. coz' i didnt get to cut my bday cake. even though one of my friends bought me one, but i wasn't able to grasp a good timing to gather all of them all at once. so, the cake was left as it was when i first received it and was given to my bf to share with his family at the end of the chalet. suddenly, the meaning of my chalet vanished....

actually, if my girlfriends hadn't bought the cake, i would still be alright coz' i wanted much to gather my friends than to arrange a cut-the-cake ceremony. the awkward feeling came when i checked out this morning, seeing the cake untouched and the meaning of the cake still left sacred.

maybe, a birthday isn't a birthday without having friends to sing you a bday song, make a wish and blow out the candles, wishing your wish come true. i may not be that traditional anymore but some traditions should still be honoured.

i'm not complaining or being whiny. just that if i've followed the "tradition", it would have made a perfect ending to my event - my bday.

after all, it's not any other bday i'm having. it's my 21st. a mark to my 1st step entering a new stage in life - my adulthood.