Lunar New Year Eve

while i see others welcoming the new year as a family, here i am mopping over the reality and reminising the past...

my mum no longer honor her responsibilities as a housewife and seeks for greener pasture. she has found it and enjoyed it so much that there would be no way she would turned back, not even for her children. to her, her children has grown up and able to take care of themselves, it's time for her to find what she deserves. and she has decided to "wash her hands off" almost all matters pertaining to home. right now her mentality would be, "if you don't like, fuck it and do that yourself next time..." in contrary to the past, "oh, alright, never mind. just make do for now, we'll not have that next time...." and yet, she wants her kids to stand by her in regards to the messy divorce with her incompetant husband.

common family practices are omitted and a family doesn't feel family anymore. despite that some may think it's quite meagre, but to me, it means something. it represents something. coz' it's done as a family.

i wanted this whole saga to be over... i want my parents to finally get ANYTHING and EVERYTHING settled, so i'll be able to find my peace and tranquility i needed badly. i overheard that the day would be Feb 9.... pray hard that it'll finally come to an end.