i think i have been one of the worst friend ever. i didn't buy any presents coz' i'm like so super low on cash, i didn't meet up my friends for x'mas or NY gatherings, and i guess i've been wanting to meet up with some friends and i haven't got the opportunity to do so.
and so, this is like one of my 1st ever x'mas and NY to be working, while others are enjoying their long hols. the feeling's suckiest ever.
for the past 2 weeks, i signed in at 9am and knock off way past the official sign out time. so tiring, so exhausting. whatever "festive mood" i'm supposed to have, totally vanished. so right now, i've clocked like more than 22 hours of OT, and it's not as if they're paying me back.
with all the work, i don't exactly have time to catch up with my studies. with my rest days, i'm like catching up with my sleep more than anything else. and somehow, i can't exactly remembered i have rest days.... LOL. so i can't help feeling quite aloof this semester. and it's also not a very nice feeling to be aloof about studies. i'm really very insecure lor...
i'm like super unhappy... or pretty unsatisfied lah. so much angst about working during festive season, and yet there's nothing i can do coz' that's the price i pay when i decided to join retail. and it's this kind of unhappiness that irks me and i can't help thinking of changing job. i know part-time is a close-to-perfect situation for a study person like me now... but money how??? aiya, don't know lah...
i missed the countdown gatherings, i miss the friends sessions and all... haix. i feel i'm so bogged down with endless troubles and hurdles.
with all the late nights of working, i can't help feeling grouchy....
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