banquet... finally settled

i never forget how YM told me over the phone, that the banquet was such a pain in the ass. he had so much frustrations and angst over it. i don't blame him. i'm ashamed. in fact, he's right - what i've done to help him get out of this sticky situation? worse, he's so right that the mess i've made, he is made to clean up after me. he didn't deserve all these... and yet, at the end of the day, he still wanted to be with me. i don't know what he's thinking... dumb of him isn't it? well, he's a rare gem.

i was sharing with some people about my backup decision to loan that 15k from the bank if he can't rid the banquet in time. most of them told me it can be negotiated, and they advised me to think about it. seriously, i don't know how to go about getting this done... i'm not an expert in all areas.

this thing has been lingering in my mind. lost my appetite over this coz' 15k is not a small sum. i've an existing study loan to clear, and i can't take up another loan like that. of coz', if need be, i would do that. after all, it seemed only right to be paying off my "debt" owe to YM. and uncannily, today i've received a call from the restaurant. it's the banquet manager.

she was following up with my pending status for the banquet. and i told her that the banquet was off, she just confirmed that i would be forfeiting the deposit. at that point in time, i wanted to ask YM if this arrangement would be the best. but i decided to make the decision on the spot to cancel it, forfeit the deposit and get over it. i felt it was the least i could do for YM. she didn't sounded hostile at all. i'm really grateful.

for that moment i hung up, i felt a huge load of my chest. finally, we're freed.

of coz', to some of you, you prolly think that it's just something simple. oh well, at least it saved anymore trouble i've gotten YM to put through.

as for the deposit, i know, righteous friends out there would feel unfair for YM that it was his money which was forfeited. yes, i'm aware. i'm not saying i won't pay him back - half of the deposit. it's not alot of money but i'm cash strapped. no matter what, i'll try to pay him back. otherwise, i'll cash advance from my credit card to return him his well-deserved share.

sometimes, it seemed that people has this mentality that i didn't fork out my share of the wedding... annoying, actually. well, perceptions need not to be set right. i don't bother anymore...

i know i can do more to make it up to YM. other than cash, i don't know what else i can do...

sad isn't it? at the end of the day when everything's over, it's all about money.

even divorce is the same... money.